TheLittleMe =D

Rest in peace shar pei.

2012-02-06T22:28:00.003+08:00

I never knew this morning was the last time to see you.

You left me too fast aren't you?

You're not even turn one years old yet.

I see you grown up from a small little tiny puppy till this big and you left me just like that.

God are you being cruel to me?

Taking my dogs away one by one.

Fifi, Chocolate, Coco and then now Shar Pei.

I don't know. I'm so devastated now.

Rest in peace Shar Pei.

I'll love you always.

With lots of love.

Thoughts..

2012-01-10T23:57:00.002+08:00

I've grown up with different personality, better tolerance, and hiding feelings.

And a higher limit for everything.

I just understand why people just wouldn't step behind the limit instead of crossing them.

To an extend that I've been left speechless behind.

You never thought of how I felt. Really.

I don't wanna give a damn about it but it runs in my blood that I care too much always.

Dear NSK, go and sleep. Stop thinking that much/

Coco and me.

2012-01-06T00:03:00.003+08:00

Was watching Marley and me just now and it reminds me of Coco.

The question that popped up immediately is:

Why I never put her down to sleep instead of letting her to continue suffering?

If I did so , I could able to end her suffers and bid goodbye to her.

Why why and why.

Bro did the wrong thing ever.

He showed me the picture he took after Coco passed away.

So not peaceful look. Look so sick. So thin. So not her.

She has been fat till she got sick.

Fat puppy, fat mama.

She knew that we will be very sad after her death because she chose to leave when I'm not home.

Bro said that he was with her minutes before she die.

He went into his room for 5 minutes and came out to found out she's gone forever.

She knew.

But why not a last chance of seeing her?

I'm home the very next day and home doesn't feel the same anymore.

I walk to the backyard, to the front staring at the places she used to sit and sleep at.

And now I still do so.

6 years, and she's gone without a goodbye to me.

I never got to see them for the very last time don't I ?

It happened the same when Fifi and Chocolate died.

I really wonder why.

Happy New Year 2012 !

2012-01-01T19:04:00.002+08:00

First of all, Happy New Year everyone!

2011 passed in a jiffy without me realizing.

December is a month full with special dates.

Celebrated New Year with Darren, Bitto, Eequin, and Shawn!

No countdown but we wished each other right after the clock strike 12am! :)

It was a healthy night with us not going to club.

And I'm not keen to see fireworks any more.

Perhaps, that's what we call you feel boring when you grow older.

Felt so old as I'm going to be 21 this year!

The feeling of stepping into the real legal year is awesome!

Nevertheless, I left 2011 with happy memories despite of all those downs I faced during the year.

Friends are pretty supportive during 2011 and I'm glad that I have them.

And I've some resolutions made in my mind.

2012 New Year Resolution:

1. Study smart and play hard.

2. Spend lesser.

3. Save money for my 21st birthday party!

4. Stop being so noisy whenever I'm drunk.

5. Know more friends.

6. Be much more independent.

7. Learn to trust people.

8. Get into a relationship.

Hope that I can achieve all of them by end of 2012. :)

You'll be most probably laughing at number four but it's true that I'm too noisy whenever I'm drunk. Pretty annoying I guess. ._.

2011 made me realised that I doesn't have much friends. I need more.

I'm too on the quality friend rather than quantity friend , I suppose.

Number eight. Well, that's my resolution for 2011!

Couldn't achieve it last year but still, no rush. Hehs.

Wish all of you have a Happy New Year and have a great one this year!

Signing off with loves,

xoxo.

ps : imy.

Happy Winter Solstice ! :)

2011-12-22T11:08:00.004+08:00

First of all, Happy Winter Solstice ! :)

Wish you all tuen tuen yuen yuen!

Unfortunately, this year I couldn't make it home again because of working.

But then, I had homemade tong yuens on Monday!

Thanks to mama for the delivery. Hehs. <3

And I'm really sorry for the lack of update.

My life is dull as ever.

Working working and watching movie.

Somehow, I've got no inspiration on what to blog about.

Perhaps, about how I lose so much weight ?

That should be a good idea I suppose.

I wasn't at home on my off days. Yes.

I went over to Elaine's place for sleepover then we went out for the whole day again.

Feeling really lethargy !

****

Went to Sungai Siput to meet client with my boss.

He fetched me back home awhile to drop my stuffs.

My dogs are so excited to see me!

Especially my little white. :)

I'm so happy to see them too.

It has been a month since I last sayang them.

p.s : next post gonna be about someone's birthday

Random thoughts .

2011-12-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

As a kid , I longed for the care and love from everyone.

And now. I still do.

I'm not from a perfect family. It's rather complicated.

Yes. I'm living like a princess. Getting what I demanded.

People out there always jealous about this.

But if you know the reasons behind no denial for these, you wouldn't envy anymore.

Since young, throwing tantrum gets me everything.

My mom caned me only once.

Dad never. I'm forever the pearl on his palms and a princess in his eyes.

Being pampered so but. Still feeling empty and lonely in the heart.

Due to family issues, I'd been living with my guardian since I was 1 month old till 14 years old.

I moved back home when I was 15.

FYI, I cried for months. Yes. I miss my guardian.

And I leave home to KL to persuade my studies when I was 18.

My parents are like strangers to me.

We are not even close to each other.

But. We love each other , I know.

I longed for the hugs from my parents. Wishes from them. Calls from them.

All these are awkwardness to us.

The last hug from them was when. I don't know. I can't remember anymore.

It's been long time.

I don't want there's only money topics with my parents.

Like dam seriously.

Sighs. Nothing I could do.

Maybe I shall make a wish every single night.

Halloween 2011

2011-12-01T23:23:00.004+08:00

Somehow I think that I've procrastinated too much that this blog has been abandoned.

So sorry.

Finals have been long forgone.

I'm currently in my 3rd week of holidays. Long way to go still. :)

Started working at PiyoPiyo @ Sunway pyramid for a week!

Do drop by and say hi if you pass by the shop. Hehs.

This post is going to be about Halloween 2011 !

I'm not a very particular in celebrating Halloween, Christmas or New Year.

Because I do think it's just a reason for us to hit the club .

But this was different ! We celebrated it at Bun's house instead.

So peaceful that I barely torture my liver that night.

Indeed, this is my very first Halloween celebration I suppose.

And it was a little relaxation before my finals hit right on my head.

Let's begin and let's the picture do the talking.

Everyone reached Bun's house and we are divided into 4 groups.

There are 15 of us hence, there's one group with 3 members.

I'm allocated in the same group with Darren , Jian Kai and Bun ! :)

We are having a watermelon craving competition!

Darren was the hardworking one who went on google image of craved pumpkin and did 95% of the craving! *thumbs up*

I did help for a little. Digging the watermelon's fresh out and well cut out some part of the teeth.

So freaking satisfied with the outcome!

Aftermaths, Bun's brother and cousins are asked to judge the craving.

And *drums roll* ~~~~~

My group is the winner ! *bwahahahahahhahaah*

Went to the playground to play around and took pictures .

It was so awful because I got stung by the mosquitoes gazillion of times. .___.

Destroyed the watermelons and cleaned the place up.

Went back to Bun's house for the game!

Was so freaking lucky that Bun and me doesn't have to drink much.

Lucky group I know! :)

Some of them were drunk. I mean tipsy.

Went back home around 2am and thanks kai for fetching me ! :)

The 4 awesome groups. :)

The outcome of our craving competition!

Us. :)

p.s : I'm very lazy to write a lengthy post. And there are pictures still. Will try to upload when I'm free. Cheers !

One more to go !

2011-11-08T20:13:00.003+08:00

" Hold on there, just one more and you'll be free entirely. "

Took my third paper today.

It was okay.

Easier than I expected thou.

Just one more paper on this Friday and I'll spell HOLIDAYS! :)

Can't wait for it.

Birthday coming soon too!

So excited !

Btw, I have secured myself a job at PiyoPiyo @ Sunway Pyramid.

The salary is okay and it's convenient for me.

Time to study law , law study me again !

Will blog again after my finals . :)

Planning to perm my hair before cny.

Do I look good with this wavy hair? :)

On Hiatus !

2011-10-22T00:19:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,

Sincere apology from me for the lack of updates.

I'll be on hiatus till 11th November due to my finals !

It's time to fight with all the notes and sleepless nights. :)

Good Luck to all Monashians!

Will be back! Stay tune.

With loves,

Sook Kuan.

2011-10-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

" Mood turns bad whenever the sky turns dark. "

A week has passed in a jiffy. I'm chasing for time.
Can I have 48 hours a day please?
That won't come true thou. Time management is the point!
Which I'm suck at. Sighs
Mood swing sucks big time.
Feel really lethargy these days. I wonder why.
Finals in 3 weeks time and I need to start my revision like now.
But well, procrastination said hi.
I wanna break up and bid goodbye with procrastination. :(
Last week was pretty hectic!
Accounting assignment due on Wed, dance practice on Thurs, and dance dinner on Friday!
Dance dinner is fun with those performances.
I performed Latin ; Samba and Swing for beginner.
My partners forgot the steps , so I have to follow them too ! LOL!
Was very nervous beforehand but it gets better when I'm dancing.
Perhaps, it's because I never look at the audience. Hehs.
Went back to Ipoh on Saturday afternoon and came back yesterday afternoon.
The main purpose is to attend baby Ivan's 1 years old birthday party!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY IVAN!

Had a great time at the party!
Shall go study like now!
Toodles. :)
xoxo

Picture of mine in case you forgotten how I look like. :)

Life goes on.

2011-10-03T15:44:00.003+08:00

" Goodbye holidays ; Hellos stress . "

Last day of holidays for me, it supposed to be yesterday thou.

Sighs.

Feeling really lethargy today eventhou I had enough of sleep. :(

Have to do yoga and exercise a little later on , I reckon.

Working on my tutorials and assignment now.

I've procrastinated enough. Time to buck up.

Counting down 30 days to finals. ._.

Worked at Subang's Carrefour for the weekend. Earned myself a little money.

Besides, I work for experiences. It was tired but well I gained lots of new knowledge.

It was fun working there thou. Other promoters are good.

Learnt lots of stuffs. Thanks. :)

******

I think sometime I should relax and make myself happier.

Cousin just did an impression test for me.

The results are so true.

It goes on like this :

1) I'm customary inside my own world.

2) Sometime it's hard for friend to close to my heart and talk personal things.

3) I don't disclose what's in my heart to anyone.

4) I've my own privacy protection.

God dam true. FYI, I would rather stay at home than going out sometime.

I like going shopping alone. Such a weirdo I know.

I just wanted to be me alone. Standing by my own.

No one really knows what's in my heart now and then.

Perhaps, it's time to change.

Putting a little trust on my friends and I'll be happier.

That's what I'm wishing for.

God bless me.

xoxo.

Mess.

2011-09-28T23:47:00.003+08:00

Everything in a mess now.

Sadness filled everyone's heart.

It spells so as F.A.M.I.L.Y but it doesn't let me feel much of the family warmth and love.

I doesn't know why.

With these fuss happening in the family nothing seems go right.

It's none of my business. Different surname.

Sigh. But the image of grandma eyes with tears make me heartache.

Why why.

Everyone thinks they are right. Egoism .

Money is the main cause.

Does money really can buy family love ?

I don't know. But that's a big no no for me to let go love because of money.

Double sigh.

Shouldn't think and care so much thou.

Just wish everything is alright for now.

********

Time flies aren't it. It's Wednesday which mean I've spent half of my break already.

It seems like yesterday was the first day.

Leaving home and back to k-hell tomorrow.

Always feeling very reluctant to leave but I have to.

Dance practice, work , and studies.

I need, no I MUST buck up with my studies.

Forgotten most of the stuff that lecturers taught few weeks back.

I felt stupid. It's my bad thou. Never really keep track with revision.

Btw, deep inside my heart I wanted to getaway from M'sia for a little while.

I guess I need a little vacation.

All by my own. Alone, perhaps.

Like a real relaxation. Without worries. Without stress. :)

Saving up for my leisure.

That's my dream and aim for now.

*******

Relationship. I've no one in my heart and mind right now.

Yes, no one.

I love myself more than anyone now. Selfish much eh.

Involving myself into r/s is a big no no for now.

Sometimes, I do feel lonely.

I do feel tired of being alone. Being independent. Being brave and tough.

There's time where I wanted a shoulder to lean on , a body to hug.

But still, these reasons won't be why I find a bf.

I need someone who loves me more than I love him.

Not someone for me to hold when I feel my life is hard, tough and bad.

I want someone to support me. That's it.

So simple aren't it. :)

Enjoying my single life, so hell yeah.

I can still mingle all around. Flirting here and there. Hehs.

Signing off with loves,

xoxo. :)

So here I am once again.

2011-09-23T15:49:00.002+08:00

Harroooo ! Alohaaaa! Yellowww!

Life was so busy that I've abandoned this blog more than 2 weeks.

And now I'm currently at KL Sentral's waiting for the train back to Ipoh!

Like finally, I'm going back to homesweethome! :))

Two hours more for the train and now my shoulder aching. fml.

Been sick for a week and imma glad that its 80% recovered now.

Left with cough and the usual best friend, miss.flu. ._.

One major assignment and mid term test down!

I'm now left with one more assignment and then it's time to fight for finals.

Btw, exam timetable was out and I'm satisfied with it !

Financial Accounting - 2nd Nov

Financial Management - 3rd Nov

Commercial Banking - 8th Nov

Business Law - 11th Nov

Was so happy that finals end a day before my birthday! Hohohohoho.

Time flies like super duper fast.

Please slow down a little.

It was extremely hard to catch up with time.

And when I realized , it couldn't be rewind back.

Will upload pictures when I'm at home.

Baby aino is back but I left the memory card at Ipoh.

So yeah, don't really have much memory left for me to take pictures.

Goodbyes ! :)

Black is Back with Arthur’s Day 2011!

2011-09-09T20:49:00.007+08:00

I love Black !

I love my black clothing, accessories and my black silky hair !

But that weren't what I love the most.

Black beer is one of my favorite all the time!

Which is the nicest black beer?

Of course, it's Guinness black beer ! :)))

And now, Guinness is back with the Arthur's Day celebration.

It's celebrated on every Thursday but but but ......

There's this exceptional day that there will be having the biggest celebration !

A few artistes will be invited for the celebration.

And guess who are the artist for this year?!

The venue ? Date? Time?

Gosh ! I'm so excited for it but ! It's a private event .

How am I gonna get the passes for the event?

Let me reveal everything now !

The main artist for 2011's Arthur's Day is .......

* Drum rolls*

IT'S MY FAVORITE TAIO CRUZ !

Superb duper in love with his songs!

Can't wait to see him on Arthur's Day and guess what ?

I'm now working as brand ambassador for Guinness at Sunway Giza.

So, it means I'm celebrating every Thursday Arthur's Day.

How can I miss the big big day for it ?!

Date: 23rd September 2011 (FRIDAY)

Time: 6pm onwards

Venue: Speed City KL, Selangor Turf Club.

Besides Taio Cruz, 6 talented local music acts :

Prema Yin

Nakedbreed

Rosevelt

Dragon Red

Jin Hackman (feat. CSBTEA)

James Baum

Two out of this acts will have the change to perform with Taio Cruz.

But how?

It's all based on the votes online , so wait no longer and vote for your favorite local acts on the Guinness Malaysia Facebook page !

http://www.facebook.com/guinnessmalaysia

It's getting more and more exciting and I can't wait for it to come!

But firstly, I have to win the passes for it and share it with my friends !

Not going to be selfish and gonna enjoy it with them.

HOOOOOOORAYY!

" ALL TOGETHER NOW : TO ARTHUR ! "

Ended.

2011-09-04T22:44:00.002+08:00

" When there's hope , there will be me. "

Feeling so bloated now due to my heavy dinner.

Sunday is a no diet day! :)

Need to control my foods intake for the next 6 days thou.

Talking about life.

It has been treating me as good as I wanted.

There's another assignment due on 15th Sept and I done nothing yet.

So FML, but well I'll buck it up by Tuesday.

A week of holidays officially ended.

Time flies. Everything passed in a jiffy.

Especially happy and relax moments.

It's week 7 for semester 2 .

Few more weeks we will be facing finals again. Dreading for it.

********

I'm missing someone but yet I don't know who.

Did you encounter such weird feelings before ?

I wonder why.

It's very weird indeed. Feeling uneasy all the time.

Sighs.

Mixed feelings again.

Sometime I wonder, choosing to be single for the time being is good or bad.

I'm weird. Getting weirder day by day.

But well, I'm who I am.

I wish there's always someone to be there for me.

But the right one haven't enter into my life.

Time. Yes. Time will prove everything.

It's time to buck up with my studies now.

Toodles. :)

Signing off,

xoxo

Selamat Hari Raya And Merdeka !

2011-08-30T00:43:00.003+08:00

" Absence makes the heart grow fonder".

First of all, Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Independence Day ! :))
A week break like finally!
Pardon for my lack of updates.
My life is dull. Full with assignments and I look like a walking zombie now!
So pathetic right. Hehs.
Hmmm. I shall start from the new stuffs of August !

A little too much

2011-08-26T16:34:00.002+08:00

" When there's the thoughts of giving up, look forward to happiness."

Things ran out of their track.
Same goes to my life.
I'm tired. Literally tired.
Assignments make me feel restless.
Lingering around my brain even thou I'm suppose to be resting.
That pretty much explains my tired face.
Especially my eyes.
I'm gonna sleep as much as I could next weekdays.
Just to replace all these sleepless nights.
I do sleep but I don't think my brain do rested.
So hell yeah, I hate you assignments. Bitches !

Assignments !

2011-08-20T16:32:00.003+08:00

" Being single doesn't mean lonely , it gives you time to seek for the right one. "

Aloha ! Life is not treating me as well as I wanted them to but still so far so good.
Had a very hectic Thursday!
Class from 10.30am to 7.30pm with two 1 hour break in between.
And have to study for my fm quiz right after the 7.30pm class.
Well, I love it because it's a very productive day yet a very hectic one.
It does help me in sleeping well at night without rolling for an hour before falling asleep. :)
Piling up assignments drove me crazy.
Should have started with my Law assignment but yet I'm not sure about the answers yet.
Indecisive!
No more movies and chilling at Wings for a month at least ? :(
I'm chasing time. Because of procrastination.
My bad my bad !

******
I usually spend my weekends at aunt's house @ Sungai Buloh or back to Ipoh.
And now I'm currently at Aunt's house ! :)
Jie jie brought a puppy back home and he's soooooooo cute !
His name is Kiko. <3
He's a mixed breed. Toy poodle mix with shih tzu.

******
My baby aino is currently in a very critical condition.
The screen doesn't pop up when I slide up.
I need to slide it a few times only the screen appears. .____. FML
The camera getting crazy as well. *shakes head*
A good reason to demand for iPhone 5, perhaps.
My ptptn loan approved. I got 40k loan .
Wanted to ask mummy to let me spend 2k of it for stuffs that I wanted ?
After all, after I graduated I have to repay them back.
So it's counted as my money also?
Omg. I'm in huge debts !
Time to do my assignments !
Toodles.

Pending works

2011-08-15T12:26:00.005+08:00

"Stopping yourself from procrastinating yet finding yourself procrastinated more."

This sentence reflects me much.
I've lots of pending works now.
Law assignment that yet to be started , study for fm quiz and fa test.
It's in my blood that I couldn't sit still and concentrate.
Time is ticking all the time and still I'm wasting them.
Finalized decision to go back on 29th August if there's train ticket.
Hopefully there's still train ticket for me. *fingers crossed*
Not going back for 3 weeks is just so not me.
I miss home. The house. Not the people living in it.
The older I grew, the harder I found to communicate with them.
I just doesn't know why.
Daddy bought 2 new rottweiler puppies back home.
Sighs.
Trying to let go the sadness of Coco's death. Like someone said : nothing last forever.
Commencing into week 4 of uni life and I'm still blur.
It's in my gene and I couldn't help with it.
Shall take my lunch and start doing the pending works.
May today a fruitful day. At least, a productive day. :)
Have a nice week!

***********
Singapore pictures time !

Our cozy room in Marina Bay Sands !

Exhausted

2011-08-09T22:50:00.004+08:00

" Awaiting for a better tomorrow yet not wanting to let go of today. "

I've not been very productive these days.
Too much stuffs to study. Brain functioning low.
Must start doing law and fa assignment by this weekend.
I got no where to wonder to. Aunt is going to Shangai on Friday.
Sighs. The thought of staying here for the weekend with books make me sad.
I'm dead broke. No money to go out.
And I'm on diet.
So hell yeah. Staying at home wouldn't be a bad idea.
Struggling with law now and I should read the textbook up before tomorrow's tutorial.
I wanna get high mark for the participation.
Hope I talk something relevant tomorrow. :)
Might consulting the tutor after class because I'm so confused still.
Time flies.

********
Hurting people is my last choice.
There are things that you can't force it to happen even thou they are possible.
You need to know, it's not about you and me.
We don't stand together.
They are people around us still. Care about their feelings.
Your happiness meant nothing if others doesn't feel so.
Selfish ain't a word to describe me.
I'm sorry.
With no regrets.

**********
Owe you guys the pictures for my Singapore trip.
Here they are. :)

p.s: will upload a few each time as my internet connection is way too slow.

Stand by me.

2011-08-08T20:52:00.002+08:00

Things doesn't seem right these days.
Everything jumble up and messing up with my life.
I'm lost. I don't know which one I should start sorting out first.
Studies ? Relationships ? Family ? Friends ?
I don't know. They just make me feel sad.
Every single thing.
Take it easy ? It's hopeless in asking my brain to stop thinking about these.
Perhaps, I should just concentrate on studies now and dump others aside.
If I could dump them away forever , I will.
It's always me against the world.
Trying to be the independent one.
Deep in my heart, I'm tired of being one.
Living at this so called city drives me nuts.
I don't like it here. It's all so stressful. Always.
Meeting new friends. Communication. Socializing.
I don't want to be alone. But I don't want to be in a relationship either.
Mixed feelings. I don't wanna to find a partner just because I'm bored.
Sick of being one tough girl.
I don't wish to be one. I don't want to.
But I'm forced to be.
Wishing to back to home and be the princess once again.

p.s : stand by me.

Rest in peace

2011-08-03T23:00:00.005+08:00

The day that I've been dreading for finally came.
It's all started when my white aino vibrating in my bag during fm lecture.
Stated on the screen "korkor". I knew something wrong.
Muted it as I can't answer it in the lecture hall.
Called him back during break time.
And the conversation was short. Literally short. Few sentences only.

********
Bro : Coco passed away already.
Me : Orh. Can you bury her at backyard ?
Bro : Yeah sure. Someone is coming to dig the hole later.

-The End-

*********
I ended up crying in Monash's toilet.
Held up the tears and went into the lecture hall again.
Deep inside, I was feeling very grief for the loss of mine.
Coco has gone. Without me seeing her the very last time.
I was devastated.
Life goes on. So I attended all the classes on that day and went back home.
Cried a little and went out with Emest bro aftermaths.
It was a tiring day.
By the time I reached home, I was busy with tutorials works.
They kept me from not thinking about the death for a little.
I miss her. I miss everything about her.
She left without letting anyone beside her.
I know, she doesn't want us to be sad for her.
Korkor told me that he was beside her minutes before she die.
But she chose to die after korkor went back into the house.
She doesn't want us to be sad for her.
But I couldn't help it.
6 years. She has been living for us for 6 years.
The thread of love is there. Was there. Always there.

********

Dear Coco,
We might not be the best owner in the world.
But I wanted you to know that we always treated you as a part of our family.
Everyone are worried when you're sick.
The news of you might having cancer and the chance to cure you is almost 0 almost killed me.
You might be just a dog. A freaking rottweiler.
That's what people likes to say when I'm crying over your death.
I love you now, always and forever.
You might not be the best dog. Not being obedient at all.
But your silly acts never fail to make me smiles.
It's a routine to bring you out for a walk everyday at 6pm.
But it's all stopped since the day you injured your foot.
I was so worried. You can't walk properly and it gone worsen.
If we brought you to the vet earlier, you might not need to suffer for almost 3 months.
It's totally our fault.
And now what I can wish for, is you to meet Fifi up in the heaven.
She's like a little mother for you. Been there since we brought you home.
She left 1 year and 5 months earlier than you.
Meet her up there and take care each other.
You two are the best dogs that I ever had.
I'm sorry for letting you suffer for that long. It has been a tragic.
You dropped weight and look like a skeleton.
Pig is no longer a word to describe you.
There won't be a day that I will forget about you and Fifi.
Rest in peace.
With loves.

p.s I love you.

First year second sem

2011-07-24T21:20:00.003+08:00

Today marked the last day of semester 1 break. :(
Lots of stuffs to settle up on Tuesday.
Sighs.
This holiday was very awesome.
Hence, that explained my weight gain and tanned skin.
Went to Singapore for 4 days and had a very exhausted 2 weeks with Elaine.
She went back to Aussie land this morning . :(
SEE YOU ON DECEMBER !
I don't mind having another 2 exhausted weeks.
Life has been great to me for the meantime.
There are downs yet I know I can go through them. :)
I'm a little tough girl okays.
Friends have been very concern about me when I'm emo-ing.
No worries guys. I'll be fine. It's like mood swing. Thanks a lot. :)
Much appreciated. <3
Depression might hit me for a little while but I'll be okay.
Good luck everyone !

Signing off.
xoxo.

Second sem

2011-07-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

Second semester going to start on next Monday. :(
Holidays ending in 3 days time.
6 weeks passed in a jiffy.
Moods swing almost everyday.
I was pretty devastated for the past weeks.
Next semester gonna be very tough as I'm taking two year 2 subjects.
Well. Talking about stress and non-stop assessments.
Hate them very much.
It will end in less than 4 months time and I'll be free for 3 months again. :)
Somehow, I guess depression gonna visit me at the first week of the sem.
Hope everything goes smoothly.
I know that I have to be prepared for something else.
Sighs.
Ended up with crying silently in the train today.

p.s: asking help from people is the last choice of everything.
I'll be tough.
So , no worries.

Coco.

2011-07-14T22:06:00.003+08:00

Two months ago , I came back home to see a skinny Coco.
She can't walk properly. She injured her left foot.
Dad and bro just wouldn't know how heartache am I when I see her condition.
Insisted them to bring her to vet but the dad just keep saying that she'll recover by her own.
3 weeks passed, she's still the same.
Bro and I fetched her to the vet and the vet said , we dragged it too long.
Kinda impossible for her to recover. Should be glad that she still make the effort to walk.
For the next few weeks, she still go for a walk when I ask her to come out.
But start from last month , she barely walk.
What she did at home is just lying down and only walk when it's bathing and eating time.
She gets weaker and weaker by days.
It makes my heart ache even more.
What hurts more is when I ask dad to bring her for vet.
The conversation goes on like this :

Dad : Which vet you all bring Coco to ?
Me : Haven't bring yet. The previous one said can't recover. I don't believe those govn vet.
Dad : So which one you all plan to bring her to ?
Me : Dr. Gilbert at Ipoh Garden East. I called him up and told him about Coco's conditions. He said need to do X-ray.
Dad : Wah. Why don't bring to government vet ? Much cheaper. Those private one dam expensive.
Me : *remain silent*

The only reason I remain silent is that I feel so pissed off.
She's the dog that gave birth of puppies that you can sell thousands last time.
Now , she can't give birth anymore.
Does that means that she got no value anymore ?
So now you think that she's just an useless dog.
You earned thousands from the puppies she gave birth from.
Now paying hundreds for the vet you need to say till like that ?
One word . Heartless.

*******
Just now, I was chatting with friend outside of my house.
Sitting on the bench besides the drain.
Coco walked out for pee and poo.
Aftermaths , she just lie down on the tar road.
No matter how I call her , she just wouldn't get back into the house.
Tried to force her get up and managed to make her walk till the side of the road.
But after that, she just lie down there.
Tried all the ways I could think of , but still she wouldn't get back into the house.
Massaged her injured foot for her but still she just lie there.
I saw her eyes started to close.
Took her head up and keep calling her name and ask her to go back home.
She lie her head back down and I saw tears on her eyes.
Somehow, I know that she's giving up her life.
She can't walk properly anymore. Not to say running.
I ended up cuddle her back into the house.

*******
I know it sounds so stupid to feel so devastated and cry over a dog.
Just so you know, I'm closer with my dogs than my parents.
Everyday, I was at home alone with my dogs while others went to work.
Just me and them.
Coco is my only companion since Fifi and Chocolate died.
Staying with her for six years.
The love bond is there.
She'll be the last dog that I will love that much, I reckon.
I gave up on getting new dogs and get close to them.
They can't live long. I doesn't want to have the same lose feelings over again.
It's so hurtful. To lose something that you love so much.
Dog is the best secret keeper ever.
They understand.
If you undergoes family problems like me , you'll know why I'm so close to my dogs.
The end.

p.s : dear god, please don't take back Coco that fast. I love her more than you do.

boooooohooo!

2011-07-13T21:36:00.002+08:00

Boooooohoooooooo !
Sorry for the long hiatus.
I've been very busy with my life lately.
Been out with friends , Singapore trip and so on.
I love my life. Kinda exhausted but yet fun. :)
This post gonna be short thou.
Haven't save the Singapore trip pictures in my lappy yet.
Hehs. The trip is super awesome.
MARINA BAY SANDS IS SUPERB AWESOME CAN !
Never regret paying so much to stay there.
Felt so heart pain at first because I pay for the hotel , air tickets , and USS by myself.
But when I saw and get into the hotel , I was like with no regrets. :)
Gonna upload the pictures soon ! I promise !
Stay tune. :)

._.

2011-06-27T22:26:00.002+08:00

Think that I should do a little blogging .
Well there's little secret hidden in my heart these few days.
I'm acting weirdly nowadays.
Feeling so reluctant to go out with friends.
I just doesn't know why.
Gahh.
NSK you should go bang the wall and die.

Great weekend !

2011-06-26T20:28:00.002+08:00

Aloha !
The past few days were awesome.
Cousin came to fetch me to his house on Friday's night.
Went to eat supper at KTZ with the cousins.
The mango loh is the love ! <3
Woke up super early on Saturday morning as we are going to Bukit Tinggi and Genting.
Kick out our day with breakfast at a coffee shop nearby.
Headed to Bukit Tinggi and well the place is suck. ._.
We saw swans thou. Black and white.
The white one is so pretty ! :)
Aftermaths, we headed to Genting.
It was very misty.
Not very cold thou.
Never take out my cardigan although I'm just wearing my tube jumpsuit.
Chilled with cousin's gf at Starbucks.
The guys went to casino. The 2 cousin sisters went to rides with the kids.
Started our journey back to kl around 6pm.
Took our dinner at a restaurant at Sri Petaling.
And I realized that I'm allergy to prawns.
Keep on scratching for the whole night. ._. fml
The skin became worst.
Sighs. Can I change my skin ?
Pictures with the cousin.
Will upload them once they uploaded. :)
Toddles

Weight fluctuation .

2011-06-24T20:37:00.004+08:00

My weight is driving me nuts.
Eventually I lose weight then gained back. ._____.
Like so wth. Can I just remain at 42kg please? :(
Gahh forget about the stupid weight problem.
I had a wonderful Monday, a great Tuesday , and an awesome Wed. :))
Went to Sunway pyramid and Midvalley with my beloveds! <3
They are the love.
Wednesday was awesome as I went Mist for the CraveSense event.
Went in late so yeah no more free flow.
Bought drinks and guess what.
I'm drunk again ! Boooo!
My motto is like no drunk no fun.
Thanks Bitto for taking care of me ! :)
And well I got myself a drunk partner , hi Ee-quin ! =D
Met a bunch of new friends but well I forgot most of their names.
So sorry because alcohol makes my memory gone bad.
Got tagged by friend for the pictures at Mist.
So yea, let's the pictures do the talking.

Favorite pic of the night ! <3

Little thoughts.

2011-06-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

Thoughts have been running through my mine.
I'm lost.
I doesn't know the meaning of living.
It seems like I'm going through everyday for the sake of keeping my life.
So dull and meaningless.
Studies are important but if you ask me what's my ambition.
I couldn't tell you.
Accounting is what I love but. Do I really want to be an accountant ?
That's the question.
I can't answer you. Because I don't know what I want either.
Work for the sake of earning money. Perhaps, that should be the aim.
I've got my dream.
I wanted to buy a land, build cages and help those stray dogs.
You might think I'm stupid. Crazy.
I love dogs. I'm obsessed with them.
There's a strong bonds between me and dogs.
It's all fated , I reckon.
Faith, fate and determination. :)
I'll achieve my dream someday in the future.

Backieeee !

2011-06-19T23:50:00.002+08:00

Sorry for being on such a long hiatus.
And sorry for that I didn't manage to upload my blog as often as I promised.
Uni life is pretty hectic and busy.
The blogging mood doesn't hit me when I'm free from assignments.
The normal life never change a single bit.
Sleep > uni > assignments > sleep.
And now I'm on holidays ! :)
But still, have to use my brain juice for the stupid study plan.
3 finance units on one semester might kill me.
Should figure it out again when I'm free.
Life in Ipoh is pretty good.
Went to watch Green Lanterns with cousins on Thursday.
Not bad thou. I give it 7/10.
Woke up around 12pm everyday.
Gosh. After suffering from insufficient sleep for 3 weeks, it's like I'm finally got a life back.
Btw, I screwed my finals. Boooo !
Let bygones be bygones. Shall work super harder next sem.
Yesterday was another great day..
Helped mom at the shop in the morning and went to Jusco to play bowling with cousins.
Well. I'm never good in playing bowling but yet I did strike once okays.
*proud*
And I did clean the drains lots of times lols.
Late dinners again and I feel so freaking fat.
Shall diet. .__________.
Going to Singapore on the 30th ! Can't wait for it.
And someone is coming back so sooooooon ! <3

I'm back !

2011-06-15T23:30:00.001+08:00

Yellow mellow !
I'm back.
Sorry for being on hiatus for so long.
Finals is officially dead. :)
I'm back to the orh-so-bored life but I'm loving it.
No assignments, tutorials homework and revision to do.
LML ! <3
I'm living good at Ipoh now.
How about you guys ?
Think it should be time to catch up a little with my beloveds.
Gahhh.
Feeling sleepy now !
Gotta update again 2moro.
A proper one, I promise.

The reason.

2011-06-01T12:24:00.003+08:00

To you, I'm a little princess who loves to show my attitude and got angry easily.
But fyi, I only got angry when people got over my limit.
Things that I angry about might be small and normal things.
What I could tell you is that, when it happens again and again.
The 'forget about it' doesn't work anymore.
Everyone got their own limit.
It doesn't mean I like things that you did when I never tell you I don't like them when u did them for the first time.
Because when it happened the first time, I'm gonna be like whatsover.
But when it happen again and again, it accumulated and irritated me.
You yourself , feeling irritated and angry because people scolded you for no reason.
It goes same to me. Who loves getting scold when they did nothing wrong?
Who loves being ignored ?
You got your reasons. But it's the same reason all over again.
You know that I hated it.
I don't know.
I used to find reasons for you to myself.
But now, I'm tired and exhausted of doing so.
Just so you know, I'm not a good friend.
Treat me as transparent and that will make your life better.
I might seems immature.
Whatever you wanna view me as.

Signing off,
The fated loner.

:(

2011-05-28T21:16:00.002+08:00

I'm way stressed up.
So much to study. And I don;t have the mood to study still. :(
Can you please kill me.
Feel like crying.
Sighs.
Off to study now.
Byes.

Stress.

2011-05-24T21:29:00.002+08:00

Boohoo! :)
I used to update my blog very frequently but now it's like a dead blog.
I'm so sorry about this my dear blog.
Could barely have any time to log in and write a proper post.
Finals is just around the corner and I'm not prepared for it.
So stress ! :(
Been working on my last assignment and got confused for the costing part.
Sighs. Gotta consult my lecturer tomorrow. AGAIN!
Hope that she don't find me irritating or stupid. .___.
How's life peeps ?
Being surrounded with problems or so far so good ?
Will be having study break for a week start from this Friday.
Hope I can study during this break or else I'll we so doom.
Well. Time to log out and study for my quiz.
Good Luck !

Signing off.
xoxo.

Who are you ?

2011-05-21T00:30:00.002+08:00

I wonder and ponder.
But still I can't remember who you are.
You look very familiar to me.
If I meet you the very next time, I will try to ask you.
I'm not desperate for boyfriend or knowing guy friends.
The feeling of you trying to recall who that person are is making me feeling uneasy.
I think I know him. But I just can't recall back where we met before.
FYI, I got good memory for faces but not for names.
So yeah.
Give me the courage and I'll approach you when I saw him next time. :)

Hachiko.

2011-05-17T13:24:00.001+08:00

Watched Hachiko and it's an awesome movie.
I cried like a baby while watching this movie.
It reminds me of my Fifi. :(((
I miss her.
No dogs can replace her in my heart.
She's just way too good.
It has been more than a year she left me.
If one of my wish to be granted, I wish that she's still alive now.

Idk.

2011-05-08T23:20:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry.
Thousands of apology from me.
It's not his fault.
I'm the one who ask him to go out for movie.
Just blame everything on me.
All started from my words.
Just on me. All my fault.
I don't know what you think.
But I wanted to tell you, once my friend; forever my friend.
I never neglect or thought you're transparent.

Perhaps, I'm just a selfish little bitch.
Whatsoever you thought I'm now.
I just hope that you forgive me.

Happy Mother's Day!

2011-05-08T23:12:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's Day ! :)
I love you mummy! Lots of loves. <3
Bought flowers for mummy.
Shared it with my bro but I don't know my mom's reaction.
This is the first time we buy flowers for her ?

Dear Mummy,
I'm sorry for what I did in the past.
The sadness I caused you. The disappointment.
Whatever you did for us are the most precious we got in our life.
You stand right beside us when our life gone miserable and hard.
You are there when we are standing up back from the failure.
Despite of everything, you love us still.
Never give up on us.
No matter how sad we got you into.
I promise to be a good girl. A better one.
Show you good results and I will let you have a good life in the future.
The hard work of you to earn a living.
To bring us up. To pay for my uni fees. My allowances.
Thank you very much !
Thanks wouldn't be enough for all these.
We will show you how much we appreciate your hard works in a few years time.
xoxo. :)

Btw, did I tell you before that I got two mom ?
One is my real mummy and another one is my guardian since I was 1 month old.
And I called her mama. :)

Happy Mother's Day !

Left out.

2011-05-05T20:06:00.002+08:00

Do you know how it feels when you're like being left out with your friends?
I know. Because I'm experiencing it.
Friends who are there to say hi and talk to me always, but now.
They are all vanished from my world.
It's like strangers, again.
Communication problems, I reckon.
Been trying my best to grasp on the friendships.
But it's just don't work the way I tried.
I've tried my best but still, it doesn't get any better.
I nag, scold or complain because I treat you as a friend.
I care you all.
If not I wouldn't bother about what you all doing.
Perhaps, I'm fated to be loner forever.
Goodbye.

Turn the time back to December, like I wished for.
Friendship is meant forever once it started.
But now, everything is fading.

Bid goodbye.

2011-05-04T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hi there!
Perhaps, it's time for a little short update about me me and me.
Well. It gonna bored you out thou.
First of all. I wanna say goodbye to money and capital markets assignment!
You are the bitch!
I celebrated my Easter break with this assignment. Pffttt.
And now. I'm done ; I'm out ! :))
A week at Ipoh wasn't enough for me.
You know that I always wish to stay at home forever.
But that wouldn't come true except I became a billionaire.
But well. Time to face back to the reality.
The uni life and assessments again.
I'm like an emo nemo yesterday.
Well. I'm one always.
One more month to finals and I'm still lost in my studies.
So doomed, I suppose. Lalalalalalala.
But no worries. I will work it out.
3 more assignments to go and hi finals and holidays !
Planning to get some part time job during the holidays. :)
I wanna save money to travel. Taiwan, HongKong, Australia and so on.
If you got any part time job that pay well please tell me kays! tyvm.
It's time to get back to the revision.
Toodles !

Dead.Doomed.Whatsoever.

2011-04-29T22:45:00.002+08:00

This blog is half dead. Not much special updates except for my crap.
And the owner of this blog is gonna be dead in any minute.
I wanna die.
I don't want to do this assignment.
The more I do , the more I feel that I got everything wrong.
But I doesn't have time to change anything.
It due on next Wednesday.
I've been doing research for this assignment for 4 days and started it.
I'm only half way through. 1k words more to go.
I forgot to bring my small note book back to Ipoh.
I can't check what I should write for the conclusion.
._________________________.
Life sucks at this point of time.
Please do kill me.
I'll write a letter to prove that I asked you to kill me.
I FEEL THAT I'M DAM FREAKING STUPID !
okay thanks bye.

I'm lost and tired.

2011-04-24T15:14:00.003+08:00

If you could actually save me from all these stress, please do.
Zillions of thank you to those that can do so.
I never feel that stress before.
Money and capital markets assignment is driving me crazy.
I don't know how to do. Not a single clue on how to do.
All I did was research for the materials and I haven't read them yet.
Saved them up and planned to read it later on.
What so happy with holidays when you got assignment. :(
Sighs. I'm lost and tired of all these already.
The high expectation of mine and the disappointments.
I never satisfied with my marks. Except for I got full mark.
I know that ain't a good attitude.
But I can't help with it.
I need changes. For everything.
Big sighs and signing off.

xoxo.

"If my tears could fall like the rain drops, I will be happy always."

The beginning of holidays.

2011-04-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

Yellow mellow! I'm kinda free today.
Gave myself a half day break.
I deserved for a short break after one hectic week.
A short one will do. Because I feel bored right now.
My sem break started today.
I've got a break till 2nd of May. How lovely!
Except for that there's an assignment due after it.
And I've to sacrifice my break to do that assignment.
I need to score for it. Desperate.
Going back Ipoh on Saturday with cousin.
Daddy gonna pick us up at train station when we reach! :))
I've been controlling my shopping habit.
I love to buy clothes and ended up never wear them.
Because I found that they look ugly on me after I bought them. .____.
Wasting money right. And most of my clothes.
I just wore them once. I should wear them at least 4-5 times before I buy new clothes!
Doesn't have the mood in blogging thou.
So yeah, toodles !
Enjoy your weekend peeps. :)

Me.dying.

2011-04-16T20:28:00.004+08:00

I'm practically dying anytime soon.
Loads of uni stuffs to do.
I don't know how I cope these all for 7 weeks.
Yes. It's my 7th week in Uni.
And it's going to be the 8th next week.
Will be having a week break on 22nd to 2nd May.
It sounds good right. Holidays. A week!
Like I should go on like Wheee! Yays!
But well. I don't feel so. I've to do money and capital markets assignment during the break.
It due right after the break. Nice one.
If you can actually lend me a hand. Do kill me.
The overwhelming stress is killing me slowly. Very slowly.
Having massive breakouts now. Been rushing for 2 assignments that due next week.
Just finished the Econs assignment thou.
Moving on to account assignment tonight.
And well. I think everything in my Econs assignment is wrong.
I will fail that assignment. :(( That's the best I can do.
Facing it for another second will kill me immediately.
Btw, how ya life going out there?
Are you all doing good ? Or just the same like me ?
If you're experiencing the same thing like I do, let's work harder and be success!

*****
To : Someone who adores cow as much as I do. :)

I know that you're very depressed now.
Cheer up my dear.
I know how you felt. It's sort of very suffering.
Go back home and tell your parents everything.
Ask for their opinions. I doubt that they won't support you.
After all, it's your future.
Everything will be fine soon! :))
I'll be here to support you always kay.
With lots of love. xoxo.

Signing off.
xoxo.

p.s: I miss you still Mr.YHY. I don't know what make me can't forget about you.
I hate myself for being such a loyal girl.

A very busy month.

2011-04-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

Another brand new week is here.
I hated it very much because it does mean my weekend has ended.
Procrastinated for another week. ._. Kill me please.
Went back to Ipoh to find my B'es.
We had a great time together. :)
I had just finished doing tutorial questions for Econs and now gonna do revision for mnc.
Gosh. Headache max.
I woke up at 5am this morning to catch the 5.30am train back to KL.
Daddy forgot to help me buy train ticket and Sunday's tickets are all sold out. fml.
Reached kl sentral around 7.50am and took train back to Subang.
Then cab to home. ._.
Was super duper sleepy and dozed off right after I reached.
Bad days. Bad luck. :(
Not gonna update my blog that often .
I've got no time. I'm like catching up with my works and studies.
So effing tired. There's 2 quizzes for this week.
And I haven start doing revision. .____.
Mehmeh. Give me extra 10 hours a day can ?
I'm falling asleep now. Should finish up my revision and off to bed.
Goodnight world. :)

Signing off. <3

Rants,

2011-03-30T21:46:00.004+08:00

I've lots to rant about since my uni life started.
There's no one for me to rant to thou.
Not like it's like no one. They are not free. My friends are all busy.
So, I shall rants at here instead.
Ranting is the way for me to release stress.
I'm never good in handling stress. Which mean I always ended up with depression.
That's so sucky. Really sucky. :(
I've been procrastinating again. I hated myself.
I promised myself to change. I need good grades.
Don't wanna disappoint my parents. I'm their only hope.
They never stress on me. Never say I must get good grades.
That's all what I wanted because. They love me. I want to make them happy.
Sighs. I've been putting much stress on myself , I reckon.
I know I shouldn't. But I can't help with them.
Could hardly have any good night sleep nowadays.
Woke up at least few times in the midnight. ._______.
What should I do. What should I do?
Everything doesn't seem right. :((

*****
Relationship.
Freak. I'm scared of this word. Relationship.
Lots of my friends always ask why I'm single when I tell them so.
I don't know. ._. I don't feel like being in a relationship.
Well. Most probably it's because I haven't really moved on from him.
Yeah. Him. The him.
It has been months. But still. I don't know why it's so hard to move on from him.
It's like orh fml.
Love is a heaven and hell at the same time.
So yeah. Studies come first. tyvm

*****
Friendship.
Well. I don't really have lots of friends at uni now.
I'm still new to here.
I wanted to be in a group. Go class and lunch together with them.
But it's hard for me. Some of them got their own friends from pre-u.
Most of them are good to me thou.
Perhaps, I shall try harder in knowing friends.
It's week 5 already.
Anyone in Monash wanna be my friends. ? :(
I look like freaking loner at uni. Dead serious. .____.

*****
Whatever it is. I shall go through them bravely.
But the truth is that. I look strong. Brave. Tough.
But deep inside , I'm fragile.
I wouldn't let much people to know about my sadness and struggles thou.
Just few of them now.
And most importantly. I don't cry in front of others.
Well. Except for funerals.
Don't judge me will you. I'm not smart nor rich.
Getting a chance to study in Monash doesn't mean I'm rich.
Rich is a word way far to describe me and my family.
Tsktsk. Average family I'm having.
I have a very hardworking parents.
They work hard just for me. My future. Thanks God I got them.
Infinity loves for them. <3!
Time to do revision!
Toodles. :)

Signing off.
xoxo.

Stress.

2011-03-28T19:45:00.002+08:00

Yellow mellow! It's Monday again. The beginning of the week. :)
Feeling good ? Not really.
The weather is extremely hot these few days.
World is changing. :(
Sighs. And now I've been stressing out about my assignments.
There are 2 assignments due on the same week before my one week break.
And before that , I got 3 quizzes and test for Econs.
That freaking test contributes 15%.
So effing stress. .____.
Pimples all over the face. Tsktsk.
I'll try to finish up my Accounting assignment first and move to Econs'.
Hoolalala!

*****
Dear B.
Please be strong. I'll there for you always.
I know how you feel.
Those feelings are so sucky.
But still you have to go through this.
It wasn't your fault nor his.
Think positively and be happy okays.
I think I shall go back Ipoh on this weekend.
Sighs. =/

The long weekends.

2011-03-27T16:55:00.002+08:00

Hellos! :) It's a sunny Sunday.
The sun is scorching hot. And this make me feeling very uncomfortable.
I had a great weekend. How about you?

*****
Friday, 25th March

I've got no class on Friday but I gotta wake up earlier on this particular Friday because I have to submit my Statistics assignment.
Printed it out in the uni comp lab and proceeded to hand in to my lecturer.
Aftermaths, I took bus to Mid Valley! :))
I never get lost. Teehee.
The very first time I take bus alone in KL.
Don't tell my parents kay. They gonna nag me like there's no tomorrow.
The reason why I go Mid Valley is that I've to buy my stuffs from L'occitane.
The shea butter lotions are on promotion! 500ml for rm127.60.
Dirt cheap! :) And it's freaking good for dry and sensitive skin like mine. Pffft.
Bought 2 bottles. One for me and another one for Elaine.
And something embarrassing happened.
I forgot to cross the road to take the bus back to Sunway.
I took the bus at the place I alighted earlier and have to change to Sunway bus at Kota Raya.
Why lah I so blur? .___.
Luckily there's good people in the bus that teach me how to get back to Sunway. =/
Thank you!

*****
Saturday, 26th March

Supposed to go watch movie with yen, yeang, rui and cherlynn.
But Cherlynn can't make it so the movie outing being postponed to another day.
I ended up staying at home watching Only you and I love Hong Kong.
Went to Milk club with my friends at the night.
Never get drunk thou. :)
Had a great night. The new friends of mine are funny. Pffttt.
So many pretty girls. :)
Hehs! Slept around 4am and now I look like a freaking zombie.
I enjoyed it very much.
Thank you for bringing me out friendos. =D

*****
I'm to lazy to type. .___.
So yeah, I'll blog again when I feel like typing.
Pfffttt. See you!

I don't know why I'm getting uglier. .___.

=DD

2011-03-24T22:13:00.001+08:00

Hehs! Finally I've got some extra time to do a little blogging.

Aloha! How's life? :)
Mine is like. so far so good.
Just finished my Statistics assignment which due tomorrow.
Like finally! Pfffttt.
Have been stressing myself too much these days.
It's like orh-so-not-good. I might be on depression anytime, anywhere.
Breakouts all over the face! :((
I've like 6 more assignments and 7 quizzes to go. .___.
May god bless me.

****
Teehee! I've been complaining about fattiness.
Why?
Have a look of what I ate after dinner on last weekend.

Strawberry white coffee! :)

*****
Teehee! I've got 0 resistance towards desserts.
They are so seductive!
Sweet stuffs make you happy. No? =D
AND FAT TOO! Pfffttttt.
As promised, I'm going to upload pictures for the outing.

Internet connection is effing slow today. =/
I will update the rest of the pictures on another post yeah.
Toodles!
xoxo

Busy busy days.

2011-03-22T20:07:00.003+08:00

*waves*
Yellow mellow! I'm back for a quick update.
I can't update my blog that always due to I've got no time.
Currently occupied with assignment. :(
Will be a little free after submitting this assignment but. there's more to come!
Have been working out for Stats assignment since last week.
Hehs. Such a hardworking student right. I know I know.
But I procrastinated last weekend because I went back to Ipoh.
Had a long and great weekend at Ipoh. Can't describe the awesomeness all over here.
It's just too awesome! :))

*****
Went to aunt's saloon on last Friday for hair cut.
Cut my fringe but still. it's still long. poking my eyes always. .___.
Ate the famous tau fu fah before going to aunt's house.
Gosh. The tau fu fah is so freaking smooth!
Went to watch 'Men fall in love again' with Joey and dinner @ Strawberry Moment.
The foods are just so so but the environment is good. :)
Took pictures of the foods and desserts but haven't uploaded it yet.
Went back home around 9pm.
A good day out with my childhood babe!

******
Saturday, 19th March 2011.
A very unforgettable day!
Went to do facial in the morning and slacked at home till 5.30pm and get prepare.
Get prepare to go where ?
GOING TO MEET BY Bes!!!
Like finally we got an outing. Never meet some of them for months. Gosh.
We took our dinner at Boston and took lots of pictures.
Wheee! The usual us talked non-stop again. Bahhs!
After dinner, we went to Strawberry Moment for desserts.
And talked non-stop at there again.
I did lots of stupid stuffs. They might think I'm crazy. ._.
Went back home around 11pm as daddy came to fetch me.
Had a super great time with my ipoh babes.
They are the <3!

Shall end this post here and I'll try to blog again next week! :)
Will upload pictures kayys.
Time to get back to the assignment.

Signing off with loves.
xoxo.

p.s: there are words that can't be utter.

Monday blues.

2011-03-14T10:18:00.003+08:00

Sighs. I'm having that Monday Monday blues again.
Realized that how much I hated this place.
Coming back here after spending 4 days at aunt's house is a total disaster.
I like sticking to people who are close to me.
Having homesick. But the home doesn't mean the one at Ipoh only.
I miss staying with my cousins, aunt and my family.
Little girl who hate leaving home.
But I've got no choice.
Why humans must study?
And why they don't build Monash, Taylors and other good universities at Ipoh.
Why? :(((
If they do, I don't need to leave home.
Have to go uni earlier later to print out my assignment and submit it before my classes.
Hope that I did it correctly. *fingers crossed*
Busy days ahead. Need to buck up with my studies.
And guess what! I'm going back Ipoh on Thursday! <3
Can't wait for Thursday to come. BOoooo! =D
Meeting my beloved babes on Saturday!
Nothing much to blog about anymore.
Oh ya! I'm a fatty now. Diet plans need to be commence once again.
So hell yeah. Don't ask me out for dinner.
No to fast foods!
Hi to sandwiches. ._.
Goodbyes!

Signing off with loves.
xoxo.

p.s: why your images never stop lingering on my mind.

Frustated.

2011-03-11T22:07:00.002+08:00

Hehs! Happy weekends everyone.
It's Friday and I feel like it's Monday. ._.
I've done my Micro assignment after stressing myself for days.
Hope that my assignment is correct. It's like so confusing!
Stressful study life. :(
And now I've just done doing revision for Accounting and moving on to money and capital markets.
I hate this freaking subject. ._. So much of reading.
I missed the first lecture and it makes me go orh-ee-orh.
Keep on like. what the hell the lecturer talking about.
Trying to buck up on my studies now. :)
Hope that I can understand them well !
If not I'm going to stay at uni and find lecturers to ask them stuffs most of the time.
Should stop ranting and continue doing revision now.
Byes! :)
Enjoy your weekend.

Stress at the first week.

2011-03-05T21:56:00.004+08:00

Hellos peeps!
It's a boring Saturday so I decided to update my this little dead blog.
Uni life is so stressful. I've got an assignment due on 14th March. :(
Trying to work on it now. :)
As you know, I just went to one lecture and tutorial class last week due to my late enrollment.
Lots of stuffs and studies to catch up with.
I can die if I skipped lectures.
Learning how to cope with all those stress.
I'm facing my Econs textbook now and trying to catch up back what I missed.
Fingers crossed for everything!
February ain't a good month for me except for CNY.
I've got a scald on my chin, rejection of my Taylors' application and blahblah.
Hope everything gonna be fine this month!
The scald part left me a very light mark. It's fading from week to week.

It looks like this at the second day.
That explained why I keep on calling skin specialist. ._.
I'm having serious homesick now.
Eventually, I miss home again. :(
Like always. Boooo.
But, I know I can't stay at home forever and ever.
I envy those people who can live with family everyday.
Sighs.
Never been to any special events nor what these few weeks.
Uni stuffs drove me crazy.
I'm trying to adapt myself to the new environment and people.
That's a little bit difficult for me. But I'll do it.
Nothing much to write already.
So I shall say Goodbye. :)
xoxo

p.s: you're miles away from me ; and I'm missing you every second.

On hiatus.

2011-03-01T23:46:00.002+08:00

Sorry peeps.
It has been awhile since I last updated my blog.
No proper posts anytime soon.
I'm busy with uni stuffs still.
Enrolled, allocated my timetable and moving house again.
Lots of things happened. I'm truly disappointed with myself.
Everything fall into pieces, I pick them up and try to stick them back, and back to the normal.
So yeah, that's all about life.

p.s: I might look strong ; but deep inside I'm fragile.

Words can't express the happiness.

2011-02-25T17:26:00.000+08:00

Aloha there!
I'm happy today. Happiest day in these two weeks, I suppose.
Guess what! I got full offer for the course I applied in Monash.
Which mean, I'm qualified for the course.
And now I'm waiting for the letter of acceptance!
Boo! Hi Monash ; Bye Taylors!
Dam happy because eventually I don't have to live in those i'm-dreading-for-tomorrow days.
It's hell. I've been through it since. Okay I lost count.
Should give myself a little treat, I reckon.
Hmmm. A day of shopping spree sounds good. No? =D
Well. Things to be settled next are my fees refund and accommodation.
Fingers crossed for all of them!
Update again next time okay!
Have to get prepare and move my stuffs into my new room tonight.
Good luck. :)

Here it goes.

2011-02-23T23:42:00.004+08:00

I'm complaining that how bored I am now and someone asked me to update my blog.
So yeah, I'm here to type down the updates on my life.
My life ain't going smoothly these 2 weeks. Nightmares I could say.
Uni stuffs are driving me crazy. Might gone insane freaking soon.
I'm not officially a degree student yet. Why?

1. Taylors' UniSA course rejected my application. They say my foundation that I took at Inti doesn't meet their requirement. Slightly telling me that I've wasted a year and 16k to get a useless cert? ._.

2. Taylors people only tell me that I got rejected YESTERDAY. I go on like wtf. You should tell me earlier so that I can apply for another uni right. -.-

3. So yeah, I immediately applied for Monash. And I'll know whether my foundation meet their requirement on tomorrow. Fingers crossed!

4. If I failed to get into Monash, I'll apply for Sunway Uni's march intake.

So now, don't you think my life fall into pieces already.
Could hardly accept all these things. They happened too sudden.
I'm fragile but well I'm standing strong to sort out everything.
There's time where I feel like crying but. I hold the tears back.
Because I tell myself that it ain't the end of the world.
It's just another down in my life.
We humans are born to face ups and downs in our life.
They are all obstacles to us. It depends on how we face them. How to sort them out.

'When you're in the most darkness moment in your life, there will still be a dim light. Hold on to it, and you will see brightness once again.'

p.s: believing in faith still. :)

A bad week.

2011-02-21T12:49:00.003+08:00

Short updates on what happened on me for the past weeks.

1. Back to KL on Valentine's Day and got homesick.

2. Had scald from lower lip to chin, and there's a dark red mark at first. But now, all peeled off and healing. :)

3. Went to scholarships interview and failed to secure any scholarships. Depressed the whole day.

4. Enrollment problems. And they asked me not to go orientation.

5. Baby nephew admitted into hospital due to diarrhea for few days. And there's blood in his feces. He's fine now thou.

6. I'm back to Ipoh yesterday night and going back KL on Wed/Thurs.

I had a very bad week in KL. But thanks to my friends who never failed to be by my side.
Love you guys. <3

Bai Tin Gong.

2011-02-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

We used to bai tin gong every year since I'm 10?
Not those small praying ceremony.
We did it kinda big. Lots of people. Foods. And those big joysticks.
But this year, mom's praying partner which I call her as auntie Florence said that she can't bai tin gong.
Mom told us that it's canceled this year. She's lazy to organize everything herself.
But. Brother and me keep on telling her that, you can't stop praying after you started it.
Kinda like superstitions.
So mom decided to make a small praying ceremony. And I was like. Yeah!
Auntie Florence's husband fetched mom, cousin, ah yee and me to buy those praying papers or whatever we call them.
We bought not many thou. But still it costs around RM300.
Just for burn. ._. So not environmental friendly. And so expensive.
Bought fruits, those praying foods and so on.
Bought kfc at the night and mom cooked fried noodles. =D
Helped them to fold the papers and it makes both of my hand so colorful.
Get prepared everything and started to burn the stuffs around 12am.
Firecrackers and fireworks rock! <3
All of us started to eat like a pig after praying.
The roasted pork are just too nice that I can't stop eating. ._.
Last supper for CNY, I reckon.
They started to gambler and I walked around.
Dozed off around 3am.
Eventually, I asked mom to organize it back to the normal one next year.
And she said , 'Of course'. :)
The praying ceremony we used to have cost them around 10k.
Most of them sponsored by mom and Auntie Florence.
But well. They don't mind spending that much as it really bring luck to us.
Chor 9 is always like the last day of my Chinese New Year.
Everyone going back to working life. Study life.

Goodbyes.

2011-02-09T21:32:00.002+08:00

Day 6
The very first day that I can wake up late.
Woke up around 12pm and went to eat brunch with uncle, aunt and cousins.
Went back to grandma's house and slacked.
Cousins are going back to KL. Feel kinda sad because it's Chor 6 only.
They used to be in Ipoh till chor 9 every year.
Went to Wong Kok Char Chan Teng at De Garden as cousins wanted to eat lunch.
They went back to KL right after lunch and left 5 of us. Boo! :(
Went to buy movie tickets to kill our boredom for the nights ahead.
The night is extremely bored thou.
Went out to yum cha with cousins and talked about lot of things.
We wondered. Discussed. And well. Never argue. :)

Day 7
Wheeeee! I woke up around 12pm again. Sleeping is like orgasmic. =D
Played lami with the aunts and cousins.
I won back those I lose in the previous days. Hehs!
Went to Jusco and watched All well Ends well 2011.
Quite nice thou.
Spent the night at grandma's house seeing cousins play lami.
I wasn't keen in gambling. I only play when they got not enough kaki.
But I like to teach my aunt how to play and most of the time she listen to what I said.
Like a professional. :))

Family Penang trip!

2011-02-07T21:06:00.004+08:00

We barely travel during Chinese New Year.

But it's different this year.
We went to Penang. The whole bunch of us. 18 adults and 2 child.
Rented a bus because it's much easier than traveling with 3 cars.
Woke up before the sun rise again. Dead tired. ._.
Went to eat breakfast before we started our journey to Penang Island.
Reached there around 11am and we went to Kek Lok Si.
We have to walk up because the bus can't go up.
Dam freaking tired and hot!
Walked and bought lots of snacks. =D
Ate laksa and char keoy teow as lunch. The foods are so nice!
Aftermaths, we headed to Tropical Fruit Farm located at Teluk Bahang.
Btw, we went to eat the famous Cendol before heading to the fruit farm.
Quite nice thou. But wasn't the best I had.
It took us around an hour to reach the fruit farm and I'm sleeping all the way.
Paying a visit to that fruit farm is a waste of money and time. ._.

Imagine.
1. It cost RM28 for each of us. Which sum of to a total RM504.
2. We came at the wrong season.
3. Walked under the sun just to know more about the fruits' trees.
4. The tour guide thought we don't want to go further up because grandma told him that she cannot climb the hill.
5. We ended up eating those cheap fruits that we can get at market. ._.
6. We drank a glass of weird combination fruit juice. And some of us lao sai!

Left the fruit farm around 5pm and we headed to Bukit Tambun for dinner.
Slept throughout the journey again. Booos! Not toopig, I reckon.
The dinner was awesome!
Love the yee sang, the fish. Indeed, I love everything.
Pretty cheap too. RM398 for 2 tables.
We never order expensive fish because the fruits meal cost us a bomb already.
Reached home around 11pm and bath.
But well, it's not sleeping time yet.
Cousins came to grandma's house and we played lami till 1am plus.
Bahhhs!

Boring days.

2011-02-06T20:45:00.002+08:00

Day 3
Woke up early in the morning and went to eat breakfast with grandma and others.
It was super packed at the food court.
We got a table but we got no enough chairs.
Tsktsk. Waited for more than 30 minutes just for my English breakfast.
Was starving like crazy. ._.
Went back to grandma's house and cousins went out for gathering.
Stayed at home till cousins came back around 4pm and went out to bai nian.
I hate going to bai nian because it's scorching hot outside.
And the worst thing is that my relatives' house don't have aircond in the living room.
Bahhhs! Reached home around 6pm and went out for dinner with daddy.
It was a very boring day because I ended up rotting in my room at the night.
Cousins went to gathering again at the night.
But they came back to grandma's house around 11pm and we talked till 1am.
Boos! 2 hours aren't enough but we're dead tired and falling asleep already.
So we stopped and it's like to be continue.

Day 4
Woke up very early in the morning. The sun haven't rise yet.
It was still dark outside.
Went to Foh San Dim Sum Restaurant with 3 others.
Guess what. We reached there around 7.15am and it's full house. ._.
But luck was on our side because we got a table after waited for 10minutes.
Thanks god. We ordered a lot and ended up can't finish up everything.
It's like. We feel like eating them. But the tummy said no.
Btw, it's my treat. Treated cousin this dim sum meal.
Once a year thou! =D
The bill came to be around RM85 for 4 of us.
It's considered cheap because we really ordered lots of foods.
And it's during Chinese New Year eh.
Went back to grandma's house and slacked around.
Ended up with playing lami till dinner time.
Everyone went back home to clean themselves and continued with the lami session.
Duhhh. Gamblers!

When all of us gathered together.

2011-02-04T20:41:00.002+08:00

Second day of every Chinese New Year is the most happy day.
Why?
Cousins, nephews and nieces are back to grandma's house!
Lots to catch up with the married cousin sisters. =D
And the models of the day are my nephews and nieces.
They are god darn cute. Booo!
Envy me! I'm a happy 20 years old girl. Okay well. Aunt. ._.
Had a great lunch! The foods are just too yummy!
Went to cousin's mom side in the afternoon.
Main purpose is to go there to collect angpaos! =DD
Unexpectedly, mahjong's sound never filled our cny that much this year.
We enjoyed seeing the kids playing pop pop than playing lami.
Cousins left grandma's house around 10pm and we start to play lami.
I went back home and made myself a cup of coffee cause I'm falling asleep.
As cousin and I are so tired, hence we lose money. :(

2011's CNY!

2011-02-03T14:36:00.003+08:00

'The tiger's roars gone and rabbit hops into our life.'

Goodbyes Tiger, Hellos Rabbit! :)
It's the first day of Rabbit year.
As usual, we woke up early and get prepared.
Like the previous years, we went to 5th Granduncle house to bai nian.
It's his Birthday on nian chu yi. Laughed and eat dim sum as breakfast at there.
Catching up with the relatives are fun. The laughter sounds are what we love the most.
Get lots of ang pows and headed back to grandma's house.
Lion dance group came right after we reached home.
While waiting, we took lots of pictures as all of us dressed up nicely.
Not excited to see the lion dance thou.
Left grandma's house and proceeded to my guardian's house right after the lion dance.
Had my lunch and stayed there for few hours.
Took lots of pictures too. Baby Ivan is so cute! =D
Cousins came to fetch me to Old Town Kopitiam as they are going there for lunch.
Went back to grandma's house and play mahjong.
Had a very simple dinner and continued with the mahjong session.
Tiredness filled us, so we went back home to sleep earlier.

p.s: my little white dress makes me look so fat. ._.

Happy Rabbit Year!

2011-02-02T22:45:00.001+08:00

Rabbit year is coming in less than 2 hours!
I'm here to wish you all a Happy Chinese New Year!
All the best for this rabbit year.
May you pass it with prosperity and good luck! :)
Best wishes from me!
xoxo.

A big row.

2011-01-31T20:12:00.002+08:00

Had a big row with Daddy this afternoon.
I cried like a baby again.
Not going to talk to him. Ignored him the whole day.
He knocked my room's door trying to ask me out for dinner but I just ignored that.
I don't wanna pretend that I'm happy when deep inside I'm sad.
Brought up the laptop topic and I can see that he's shocked that I knew about that.
Clearly stated on his face.
And he just said he's busy. Don't wanna argue.
I asked him to get out from my room. And I locked it again.
But well, he got my room's spare key. He came in and put down my cheque deposit receipt.
Asked him to bank in the cheque into Maybank but he bank it into CIMB.
I wrote my Maybank account's number at the back of the cheque.
And cousin says confirm got kicked out.
Dam wtf I could tell you. Stop giving me excuses.
I needed the money to pay my friends using Maybank2u once the cheque issued.
But now, all ruined by you. Tyvm. FYL and FML.
All my stuffs are paid by mummy. What you did ?
If you don't love me please get away from my life?
What for having a dad who treat friend's son better than his own daughter.
I'm sick of all these shits already.
They started since I was small. All you thought is that I don't mind.
I'm here to tell you that I mind. I care. I jealous.

Green Hornet.

2011-01-29T00:22:00.003+08:00

Went to watch The Green Hornet's preview at Mid Valley on Monday.
It was a nuffnang event. I got invited by a friend of mine who got an extra pass.
The movie wasn't as bad as I thought.
I'm not a fans of Jay Chou but yet, I know he learned English just for this movie.
His English in the movie ain't that good but, I enjoyed watching it.
I rate it 7/10. :)
But if you think it's not nice please don't blame me on wasting your time and money.
Different people , different preferences.
Yesterday night was fun!
Went to Maison with I-don't-know-how-many-people.
Around 15-20 people I guess.
Knew new friends and got drunk again. Bahhhs!
They even call me drunk girl. ._.
As usual, I can't remember what I did again.
I just know that I kept on dancing. That's it.
And whacked Emest, Yao, Kai and Derek. *evil grins*
One of the best clubbing I ever had. :)
Thanks for the memories. Teehee!

Backie!

2011-01-27T14:45:00.003+08:00

Yellows! :) I'm back. Sorry for being on hiatus!
Life is great for the past few days.
Went to Genting with 7 awesome friends last weekend.
Knowing new friends are great! Me love.
The awesomeness of the days can't be express at this little space.
Special thanks to Elaine, Darren, Samuel, Vincent, Kwanli and her friends for the memories.
Miss you guys! :)
I've got few pictures with me. I shall let the pictures do the talking.

Sam, Vincent, Darren, Elaine and Me.

Sailormoon pose with Darren!

p.s: Gonna miss you guys lots!

I'm coming home!

2011-01-19T12:45:00.000+08:00

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming

Back where I belong
I've never felt so strong eh
feeling like there's nothing that I can't try
and if you feel me put your hands high, high, high, hey
and if you feel me put your hands high, high, hey

This is my story this is my song
if you aint got the heart, don't attempt to try this at home
it's just a poem from a man once living wrong
now I'm in the zone, tell the World I'm coming home
been a long time coming, been a long time coming
this song feel like the greatest of all time coming
cause I do it B-I-G, I remember we would be high
who'd have thought we'd be running rap when we was knee high
to appreciate the sun you gotta know what rain is
or cause I'm famous you don't gotta know what pain is
but I bounce back, would ya look at that
I take my spot at the top and I aint looking back

[Chorus]
I'm coming home

I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming

Hey, confusion like I was losing my mind
but one thing I never lose is my grind
my closet need a lot of cleaning now
I can't sleep cause I dont like the sh-t I dream about
hey Dear Lord please help me get the demons out
and then help me get my genius out
and get back to what I had
if my good's outweigh my bads, do you think my mistakes is gon even out (even out)
I guess try and see, it's on my diary, I'm living for my kids
now they is just as fly as me
talk well, wonder if Andre Harrell knew how great I would be when he fired me

[Chorus x2]
I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming...home

Problems.

2011-01-18T22:41:00.002+08:00

It seems like problems are my best friends.
They just don't seem like getting away from me.
MAMAMIA!
I found a room. And just now the owner texted me and say he can't move out by Feb.
And he not sure when he can move out.
Pek check max!
I got a feeling that he's making up the having let government approve drawing story.
Like dam fake loh!
And you're freaking irresponsible. Freaking!
If you're a clever people, you should only post up renting out the room after they approved.
Not before when you're not sure when they will approve.
Dam WTF!
Okay. I'm finding for a single air-conditioned room at Suriamas , Subang Jaya.
More preferably is small or medium room.
Price around RM500 excluded utilities.
If there's any drop me a message at my chat box.
TYVM! Please help spread around.
I'm doomed!
I don't want to find room during CNY!

So weird!

2011-01-16T23:13:00.003+08:00

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Teehee! I'm very happy today! :)
My dell baby is back to me. Cured!
And now I'm blogging using it.
Have been using my desktop for 2 weeks and now switching back to my laptop, it's like so weird.
The screen diminished and the fonts too.
Keep rubbing my eyes just now due to not use to the small fonts.
But now, it's getting better. :)
Okay back to life.
I'm rotting at home on Sunday again. Yes again.
But, I'm going out tomorrow okay!
Going to get my hair done. And going shopping with mummy love!
Still deciding where we should go after get our hair done.
Perhaps, we shall go Ipoh Garden's boutiques?
I wanna get a pair of new heels and clothes.
Today. I abused my debit card again. I hate online banking. ._.
Did some online shopping!
Bought a dress, shorts and a skirt. Hope the quality is good and I can fit in them
The best thing about this online shop is that they accept return.
And perhaps they will refund. Or you have to order another clothes.
But still, it worth it right. Like if it doesn't suit you and you're not satisfy.
At least you can change. Rather than dumping them aside and wasted the money.
Bahhhs! Nothing much to blog about already.
Goodbye! :)

Ickle and Lardee! <3

p.s: remember that very moments ?

Move on.

2011-01-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna move on from you.
Hwaiting! :)

My to-buy-list.

2011-01-15T20:44:00.006+08:00

''When the phone ring, green green, I pink up the phone and said, 'Yellow, blue are you? White do you want? You don't purplely call me. If I'm angry , I will not call you black.''

Bahhs! Everything is fine now. Fine for now and in the future. *fingers crossed*.
Chinese New Year is drawing nearer. 18 more days to be exact.
I don't know why I'm not excited about that. Not at all. :(
Perhaps, it's because of I'm still on holidays.
It's something that I'm looking forward to every year.
Everyone in the family gonna gather together in grandma's house.
The laughter, smiles, screaming voices of my nieces and nephews.
Happy from the first day till the day they have to start working back.
Booos! Should get that orh-I-can't-wait-for-cny-to-come mood.
Going back KL for CNY shopping next week.
Hope that I won't overspend again. I'm dead broke now. :(
Written down a piece of to-buy-list.
Here it is! :)

My to-buy-list.
1. A pair of heels.
2. 3 shorts/skirts (one white shorts)
3. 3 dresses
4. Accessories (bangles and headbands)
5. New bag
6. Short cardigan if I found any that I like
7. 2 tops (Boyfriend shirt is a must!!)
8. Sunblock (face and body)
9. Moisturizer
10. 1 tube
11. A pair of skinny jeans

That's all what I needed now! Hope I don't add other stuffs in anymore.
Gonna cost me lots.
Me want my salary!
Next month gonna be a happy month ! :)
Gonna start studying start from 21st Feb!
Trying to find room to rent and I think I found one.
All the best for everything!
Next week gonna be a busy week as I have to settle my college and rental stuffs.
Bahhhs!
Signing off.
xoxo.

p.s: I wouldn't know if you never tell me.

Disappointment.

2011-01-14T14:14:00.004+08:00

I always thought friendships are meant forever.
But now, I think I got it wrong.
Freaking wrong that I feel like banging the wall.
Perhaps, only relationships are meant forever. Not friendships.
Those concerns toward you are just pretty useless.
Damn useless I could say.
Because you never learn how to appreciate them. Like I did.
So, I'm here now. Feeling so disappointed with you and myself.
I'm the one who think too much. No?
6 years plus of friendship and I don't think 6 years sound a lot for you.
A few months relationship took over this friendship.
I know. Someday we will grow up. And gonna live with our partner.
Lose beneath something called L.O.V.E.
Life is just that cruel. But now, friendship is more cruel than life.
Now. I'm being dump even when I said that I'm having some emotional problems.
Because you're talking to HIM.
Perhaps, you found me irritating for being emotional over the same thing again.
I'm always there for you when you feeling down.
But, you aren't there for me now.
No longer the same. I'm not jealous that you got a boyfriend now.
I'm happy for you. Because you found someone that loves you.
Truly disappointed with you.
No worries though. I won't do the same to you.
Because that's not the acts of best friend. I got the definition of best friend correct always.
I believe that you never changed. That's the real you.
The real you that I never wish to see. But. You have just revealed it to me.
Life goes on. I'll just live my life as it is.
Wouldn't care much about you anymore.
Go ahead and keep everything as secrets again. :)
And continue with those excuses.
So sorry. Your reasons hurt me more than everything.
You have got my blessings always and forever.
Signing off.

I'm a dumb dumb living in a numb numb.

2011-01-13T20:02:00.007+08:00

Never give up because close to perfection is never too far away from you.

What's your first impression towards me? Those who same class with me before gonna say that I'm a smart girl, I reckon. Just because my results are good.
Boo! You're dam freaking wrong. I'm not smart yeah. It's all because of my hard works.
Nothing fail you except yourself. The future is in your hand. Don't blame God.
Whatever happened on you today, are the consequences of what you did in the past. I failed before, so do everyone. Learn from your mistakes dude.
The me now. Is totally different from the past. I've grown up. I'm a better me now.

Let's me begin with little old stories.

I'm born with a non-highly educated parents. They don't know English. I'm being placed in a kindergarten when I was 5. I learned Alphabets, Maths, and Chinese.
So, when I was 6. I was being called by the teachers for something like audition as they are finding emcees for farewell. The emcees are supposed to be good in English.
So, the teacher asked me a few questions in English and guess what.
I don't even understand what is WHAT IS YOUR NAME? FML right.
And I can't differentiate candy and candle when I was 7. Sucky. I'm just that dumb.
I even cheated for my standard 4 English exam, where I don't know the opposite of strong.
My friend told me it's 'weak'. But this word doesn't exist in my dictionary on that time.
So, I wrote 'week' instead. And got that freaking question wrong. Even I cheated. ._.
My whole family thought I'm good in English, because I'm the only one who being placed in a Malay/English school. They are god dam wrong! Pffftttt! At last, I decided to buck up my English with a very expensive English course when I was 16 because I'm just that suck in English. :( A little bit too late. No?
I know they are important. For now.And always.

Omg! Swimming. Boo! I learned how to swim for a year when I was 10. Bahhs! Dad brought me and bro to learn swimming because he don't want us to die of drowning. Okay the truth is that.
Me and my bro. Are overweight. Obese to be exact. :( So, dad wants us to exercise.
That's the reason why I'm ended up at the swimming pool @ Stadium every Sunday Evening.
But well, I enjoyed swimming a lot. I'm the dumbest in my group because.
I'm the last one who mastered how to kick my legs for breaststroke. Laugh as you want. :(
Then I'm way too stupid. When everyone can swim very well already.
I'm still there to learn how to push my hands so that I can go up to the surface to breath.
Taadaa! I never give up. Even though I'm the slowest one.
I'm always the last one to reach as we have to swim 10laps at the end of the lesson. ._.

p.s:
I'm not writing this post to brag about my cleverness nor what. I just wanted to tell you.
Don't envy others. Do your best and be yourself.
Don't give up no matter what happened. You will see your hard works' results someday in the future. The day will come. Believe in your faith.
No one gets something without doing anything. :)

I don't know but I want to know.

2011-01-13T01:47:00.004+08:00

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Like a pregnant woman.

2011-01-12T22:43:00.003+08:00

Appetite, craving for food, is a constant and powerful stimulator of the gastric glands. -Ivan Pavlov

I don't know why I keep craving for foods.
Just like a pregnant woman. :(
I'm not pregnant okay! They told me that you will crave for foods when you're bored.
But this craving thingy starts when I'm working.
At first I craved for.....

Bak Kut teh!

I missed dipping yak chew keoy into the soup and eat them!
Lean meats rock! And the soup rock all the time.
Cousin promised to bring me to go eat when she's free but ......
Which end up I never satisfy my BKT craving. :( Sad life.
Then when I'm back to Ipoh, I started to crave for and even dreamt of eating this! (below)

Dim Sum!

Ipoh is famous for dim sum and I missed the chance to eat it with my friends last Sunday! :(
Eating with daddy is no fun at all. Because we can't eat much.
Hence, we can't order much varieties.
Gosh. I miss siu mai! :(
And today........ It changed to .......

Chawan Mushi!

Holymama! Japanese foods are what I'm craving for today.
Especially the CHAWANMUSHI!
Wanted to go Kizuna to satisfy my craving but Daddy don't eat Jap foods!
So what to do ? :(
I stayed at home and eat cereal. AND. A bowl of duck instant noodles.
Fats growing fast in my body.
Pfffttttt! Any kind soul feel like bring me to eat all these foods? :)
Bring and eat along with me! I'll pay myself. You pay for yours.
Teehee!

p.s: you make my heartache! Booo. :(

One word : Rojak!

2011-01-11T14:38:00.002+08:00

I'm having craziness symptoms! Fml.
Might gone insane anytime soon, I reckon.
I've been rotting at home and I never stop updating my Facebook's status.
And my friends started to complain that I'm noisy. Fml x2 . T_T
Okay. The rojak title is not referring to the food.
It's about languages. I'm like addicted to type my sentences with few languages.
Like. Aku miss padamu. <--- Sound nice right!
Pfffttt! Agree with me please.
I know Cantonese, English, Malay and Mandarin. Okay that's all.
And maybe a few words of Hokkien or whatsoever.
Out of the 4 languages I know, I'm never good in any of them. FML again.
I'm good in Malay few years back because I used to read a lot of Malay comics.
But now, when people talk to me in Malay I'll look at them and show them the O.O? face. ._.
Epic fail!
Cantonese. Pfffttt! The most beautiful language. Crap. -.-
I'm like revolving into a speak Cantonese life. Wheee.
But guess what, after speaking Cantonese for 19 years+ I still pronounce most of the words wrongly.
PHAILED again! :((
And the most embarrassing moment is that I said those Cantonese quotations wrongly!
I'm not a Chinese! :( Maybe I should be angmoh. Pffft!
Angmoh my head sia! My English level is like crap. I need some advanced English class.
I said advanced English class because I graduated from the certificate class.
Okay let's move on to Mandarin. The language that I love the most.
It's such a beautiful language. And it's so important now.
With my capability in learning language, I know that I'm gonna master it very soon.
FML x10000000! I'm just lying. I'll never master them till the day I die.
It's just dam hard. And there are lots of characters for Mandarin.
Let's me tell you how I remember what they call Soap in Mandarin.
It's call fei zhao right ? I go on like fei = fat , zhao = find. (in different tone lah of course)
Then the soap became fat find. ._.
I'm a freaking banana~ Pffft. Nothing proud of being one. :(
Rojak sentences ftw! One Malaysia mah! =D
The end. :)

My leng chai. <3

p.s: this post is a total crap. I'm too bored at home. If you're reading this p.s now, I'm so sorry that I wasted your time. WAHAHAHAHA!

Taadaa!

2011-01-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

Mia-ed for a few days and taadaa, I'm back!
Times flies. 9 days have just passed in a blink of eyes.
Went to The Store with mummy and cousins.
But we failed to buy anything. Sighs.
The stuffs are just too expensive and ugly clothes!
I bought some groceries and left there around 10pm. :)
Yesterday is a great yet tired day. I went out for 14 hours.
Watched 2 movies! :)
Emest, Kai, Yao and Bun came to Ipoh from KL.
Brought them to wherever they want.
And I'm sorry for the misleading roads.
I don't drive so I can't recognize the roads.
Hope you all had a great day at Ipoh.
The outing with my B's was totally the biggest failure.
We ain't happy. Half of us went to watch movie while the other half went to sing K.
It don't look like an outing. Separated.
Sighs. I shall organize those outings back.
A proper outing soon , I promise.
Goodbyes.

Down , down and down.

2011-01-05T20:40:00.002+08:00

Nothing worst than you're feeling down for few hours without knowing why.
I tried to figure out the reason but , I simply can't find an answer to satisfy my own mind.
Everything seem wrong. Included myself.
Nothing goes exactly like how they should be.
Don't feel like talking to anyone.
Emotional problems again. FML.
I just feel really disappointed. I'm stressed out.
Having holidays doesn't mean you got nothing to stress about.
Life won't treat you that good.
Stuffs that have been running through my mind are killing me.
I need a rest. A rest from these problems. A rest from my low blood pressure.
Bursting brain and neck ache.
Coffee which is my love wouldn't help anymore.
I had at least 3 cups a day for the past few days.
They don't got me into something called insomnia. But , yes to pimples.
Gosh. I just need a break.
Sighs.

p.s: make me fall asleep by singing me a lullaby.

Love the way you lie - Part 2. :)

2011-01-04T13:47:00.000+08:00

Dreadful days.

2011-01-03T21:51:00.002+08:00

It's the third day of 2011 already.
Spent the first two days with cousins.
As life goes on , I learned that giving up something is difficult.
But, I will just live my life as it is. :)
'Trust your heart if the seas catch fire and live by love though the stars walk backward'.
A brand new year ; a brand new me.
I promised my friends that I won't emo that much for the coming years.
Well, downs will still happen in your life.
I should get through them with a strong and tough mind.
Depression might hit me any minute, but I will fight over it.
My baby lappy is still dead. I'm too lazy to hospitalize it!
So, my posts gonna be very lengthy and full with words.
Bear with it for a little moment!
Will post up pictures real soon thou.
Stay tune. :)
With lots of love.
xoxo.

Hellos 2011 , Goodbyes 2010!

2011-01-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year! It's 2011 already.
And I'm going to be 20 this year. Gosh.
No longer a teenager! Need to be a little more mature thinking. :)
Countdown in the car at Maluri with Kai, Loong, Bitto and Bun!
We are suppose to count down in Quattro but we are late.
So we decided to stay in the car and stop at the side to see the fireworks.
Bun and Loong went on 5 4 3 2 1 for several times but no fireworks still. LOL.
Celebrated new year with Henesys mixed with coke in Quattro.
I got drunk again! ._.
A good way to welcome 2011, I reckon. =D
Okay! Time for 2011 resolutions list.

1. Get better scholarships to lessen mom's burden.
2. Be a good daughter!
3. Spend lesser.
4. Study hard and pass every single exam with flying colours.
5. Freaking drive out myself! Independent baby.
6. Get rid of those homesick.
7. Study abroad!
8. Earn a little extra pocket money myself.
9. Know more friends.
10. Live healthily.
11. Be attached. omg.

I made up my mind for these stupid resolutions!
Hope that I can achieve at least half of them.
And the last one is definitely crap.
I add it in because I crapped with Gladys on the phone about this the other day.
So might as well add it in for fun.
Having a boyfriend a not is not a big deal.
I got my friends still! :)
Wanted to add in : Buy more branded stuffs!
But, HAHAHAHAHAH. Better don't. ._.
It's not a good resolution. Wheeee!
A very Happy New Year to all of you.
Best wishes from me.
Signing off.
xoxo.

The end of 2010!

2010-12-31T17:00:00.001+08:00

Omg! I just can't believe that today is the last day of 2010!
It seems like 365days just passed in a blink of eyes.
Time do flies!
These are my 2010's resolutions. Let's see did I achieve most of them.

My 2010 resolutions are:
1. Diet until 40kg and maintain it for the whole year
2. Good results for my studies
3. Study abroad
4. Scholarships
5. More new clothes
6. Find a bf ( not necessary)
7. Know more friends
8. Be a good daughter =D
9. Gets prettier
10. Learns how to make up.

I managed to achieve 2, 4, 5, 7, and 10.
Whatever diet plans I got are the biggest failure in my life.
I end up growing weight. T_T
Don't think that I'm going to study abroad though.
And I don't feel like having a bf yet! Wheee. Mom is happy with that. =D
I have been feeling guilty toward my parents this entire year.
Did lots of stupid stuffs. Made wrong decisions that upset them! :(
Sorry daddy and mummy! I promised that I will study hard next year okay!
I'm getting uglier instead of getting prettier. God dam it.
My efforts doesn't work well on me! I need image consultation!
But well, I'm happy that I did achieved 60% of my resolutions. :)

Two.Zero.One.Zero. 2010.
As usual, ups and downs happened in our life.
I get through them with the help and supports from my friends.
Fallen in love and fallen out of love.
And now in a very confused mind for love.
Things happened for reason, I suppose.
Difficulties are designed by God to test us.
They can be get through by humans for sure. It depends on how. :)
These are the highlight for certain months in 2010!

J.a.n.u.a.r.y.
Homesick hits right on my head the entire month.
Feeling really emo all the time.
The thought of stop studying lingered in my mind for a little while.
But thanks to my classmates. They cheered me up.
And I stand up all by myself again.
I don't want to disappoint my mom. Her wishes to see me graduate from university.
Promised myself to be a good student. :)

F.e.b.r.u.a.r.y.
It's the month that full with joy and fun.
Chinese New Year babe! :)
Celebrated Valentine's Day with cousins at a club.
No longer a lonely Valentine's Day.
Cousins filled my days.
Got drunk and had hangover for the very first time.
New experience. new friends from club. and well angpaos!
Went back to KL right after 'bai tin gong' celebration.
Daddy and Mummy are sad that I'm leaving to KL again that soon.
Back to college life with my very moody face.

M.a.r.c.h.
The month that I teared the most in my life.
My little precious, Fifi passed away. Together with her daughter.
18th March is totally a bad day.
I'm not there to see them for the last time.
Cried myself to sleep almost every night.
Dad and bro tried their best to cheered me up.
But, their efforts are wasted.

J.u.n.e.
Wheeee! It's world cup again!
I'm not a huge fans of soccer but well, I did watched the matches that involve Germany.
Won myself 6 big meals because of this world cup.
Thanks Emest Lee kor!
Btw, Germany didn't manage to beat Spain.
You wouldn't know how much I hated Paul the Octopus that time.
But well, he's dead now. =D
Gave up on watching the finals because I'm way too sleepy!

A.u.g.u.s.t.
Sat for the last final for Foundation studies.
I'm officially graduated from Foundation and leaving Inti for god sake.
Camped at Starbucks for 12345days for the finals.
God dam stress and fat!
Had a great day out before going back to Ipoh.
Thanks! :) You know who you are.
Mango lou is the love! <3.

S.e.p.t.e.m.b.e.r.
Went to cousin sister's wedding dinner few days before going to Shangai.
All of us are very excited because we have been waiting for they day to come since months ago.
Okay. We did enjoy the trip.
To the fully to be exact. The places are nice. Scenery I mean.
Such a lie! :(
We never enjoy that freaking trip. We are deeply regret about going there.
Like throwing our money into the sea.
World Expo is the hell. I've never been that tired and exhausted before.
Walked under the sun for hours. Queuing in a very long lane.
I never love China countries. But my family love going there.
No choice! Biggest regret in my life.
8 days over there passed very fast. But I'm happy with that.
I got homesick over there. God dam it.
And the worst is that I got diarrhea at the last freaking day.
The weather turn cold on our last day too. Bad luck though.

O.c.t.o.b.e.r.
Celebrated Emest and Kai birthday! :)
They are officially 19. Wheeee.
Ain't a pretty good month. I got depression due to the course I chose.
Decided to change course. Thanks mummy for the support.
Didn't dare to go back to Ipoh to face mummy because I feel god dam guilty.
I'm such a bad daughter!
Wasted mom's money. Like lots of them.
It's entirely my fault. Guiltiness filled my tummy!
And I confessed to someone. God! I think this is my very first time.
Okay! He just got me crazy over him sometime.
I mean he's in my mind all the time.
This is the month you started to drift away from me.
Emo month. tsktsk.

N.o.v.e.m.b.e.r.
Celebrated my 19th birthday with awesome people.
Had a great night! :)
I'm officially 19. Last year of being a teen.
Not gonna be a kiddo next year. Okay that's a lie.
My wish is to be a princess forever and ever.
Everything goes smoothly on this month.
And I started my first part time work on the 29th of this month.
Scary little day on 29th. But it gets better as days passed.
I'm fully grown up and being an independent girl!

D.e.c.e.m.b.e.r.
The most hectic December that I ever had.
Could barely have any time for own leisure.
Tired and exhausted due to working.
I got closer to you at the start of the month and something happened.
And there we gone to be like stranger.
I don't know why but well, I'm happy as long as I can see you everyday.
First part time job ended on 26th.
And I went shopping spree with friends the next two days and spent rm500.
God dam broke.
Celebrated Christmas peacefully at home with cousin's friends.
This year Christmas presents are my love. <3
I will surely sing 'Back to December' by Taylor Swift always next year.
Because those memories in 2010's December are the sweetest one.
I wished time can stop. But. There's no pause nor stop button for time.
December orh December. I wished for you not to pass that fast.
And now. I'm thinking of 2011 New Year Resolutions! =D
Ending this last post of 2010 with lots of wishes. :)
Happy New Year Eve.
May you have a great one and celebrate it with your love one.
All the best.
Hope tomorrow 1/1/11 will be a good start for all of you.
Signing off with lots of love!
Best wishes from me.
xoxo.

p.s: I wrote this post yesterday night and was suppose to edit it today but my lappy's windows crashed. :( So yeah, lack of pictures with lots of words.
p.p.s: I miss you! :(

Life.

2010-12-30T22:07:00.003+08:00

My first part time work officially ended on 26th.
I can't describe how happy am I on that day.
Rushed back home and went to dinner with cousin.
I had late dinner as compensation for myself.
Went to eat western food. The one I've been craving since ages.
Working life is fun with those colleagues of mine. Not the work.
Approaching people and explaining stuffs are the hell. :(
I went on ' I don't need to work anymore! It's last day.' when I reached home.
That's a little crazy. Wheee.
Happy and excited. :)
I hit all my personal target! My targets are RM20k sales and hit target for 10 days.
Managed to hit both of them. Teehee!
I've never know that working can be that challenging and fun at the same time.
Even though there are some certain time that we feel stress ; we still get through it.
I'm happy to get closer to my friends from this work.
Told ya I'm a noisy bitch ; and you will definitely ask me to shut up.
And that really happened. Those hams ask me to shut up everyday!
Wheeee!

To all my colleagues:

Thanks for the memories.
And nice knowing you guys!
Thanks for helping me throughout the month.
Sorry for any mistakes that I did! I'm clumsy and blur sometimes.
All the best in the future! :)
Signing off with smiles,
xoxo. :)

It's just too hard.

2010-12-29T23:02:00.001+08:00

I simply doesn't know that giving up on someone is that hard.
Perhaps, it's because I give up on some people that I fallen in love before easily.
But for him, I just don't know why.
It seems hard. Everything seem hard! Gosh.
I feel like banging the wall anytime soon. :(
As everyday passed , I'll start to miss you at any second.
You just popped up into my mind randomly.
Even when I'm busy! Will you please get out from my mind for a little while.
We are friend. I know about that. But I just can't control my heart.
It's out of control. Truly not mine for now. It belongs to you.
But too bad, yours ain't belong to me.
I've tried my best. And will keep on trying in the future.
One question. Am I irritating ?
Tell me if you think that I'm irritating.
I hate disturbing people. I will feel guilty.
You are on the flight now, I reckon.
Or waiting to get on board!
Have a nice and safe trip! :)
Take care.

p.s: will you ever give me an answer? kill my hopes please. It's cruel but I hope you do so. No matter what we are friend still.

Shop till you drop.

2010-12-28T16:38:00.002+08:00

Went to Pavilion and Sungai Wang for shopping yesterday.
But, a day of shopping ain't enough for girl.
So, Joey, Chung Chung, and me went to Sunway for second round.
Wheee! That's the start of how I abused my debit cards.
The accounts are drying out freaking soon! :(
I'm a huge fans of Roxy now. Gonna be a Roxy babe during CNY.
Mom gonna murder me for spending RM500 in two days.
She always say that I'm a spendthrift! Well, that's pretty true.
Things bought during this shopping spree are for CNY!
I'm dumping them back to Ipoh to avoid me wearing them before CNY.
Eventually, we went into Quicksilver/Roxy for like thrice.
And the workers there even said WELCOME AGAIN to us! ._.
The cashier even know my name because he overheard what my friends call me.
Embarrassing thing happened in Roxy.
I mistaken one of the customers is the worker over there.
Everyone laughed like freak. And my face gone red. So paiseh!
Watched Tron and it's nice. I gone wow and wow.
The graphics are kinda nice. I like them. :)
Had our lunch at Kim Gary. It has been awhile since I went Kim Gary for foods!
Walked and walked around till 8.30pm.
We reached there around 10am , where most of the shops haven't open yet.
Like those kiasu people that my friends and I used to say when we are working.
Okay now I'm one of them! ._.
The truth is that we have to reach that early due to our transportation.
And now I've got 2 dresses, 4 tops, 1 shorts, 1 purse, and 1 cardigan.
Love them lots! :)
I'm happy still even though there's a big hole on my purse now.
Signing off with lots of love!
xoxo. <3

Proper updates soon!

2010-12-27T17:34:00.002+08:00

Just got back from shopping spree at Pavilion not long ago.
Gonna stay at aunt's house @ Sungai Buloh these few days.
Didn't bring Dell baby with me, so I'll post some proper updates when my baby is with me!
This blog gonna be dead freaking soon. Gosh.
Will update some pictures on the coming posts!
Goodbyes. :)

p.s: I'm gonna be as cheerful as I can!

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-25T00:07:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas! :)
Did Santa put what you wished for under the tree?
He didn't do so to me but he granted my wishes!
I got a bear, Taylor Swift new album and a Coach wristlet this Christmas!
Me love. These all are what I've been wishing since ages ago.
Thank you very much! =D
Count down at cousin's home with her friends yesterday night.
It was fun and I slept at 2am.
And spent half of my day working today.
Tomorrow gonna be my last day.
Promise to update more when I'm free okay!

My immortal.

2010-12-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

Stress!

2010-12-19T22:36:00.003+08:00

Gosh! I hate my life now.
I need more time to sleep.
Barely got enough sleep these few days.
Sighs. Pimples popping out. :(
Working life is totally a disaster. ._.
Should listen to mom that I shouldn't go work!
But well, I got some experience on how to deal with customers now!
Like at least , I'm not that shy to approach people now.
Working experience is what we needed in the future besides education.
With no regrets!
Cousin came to KL all the way from Ipoh yesterday because .....
His beloved Iphone 3gs is finally fixed! :)
He got the gan chiong-ness due to he can't use his Iphone after installing version 4.1.
Tsktsk. Hand itchy and now he lost rm250 for fixing it.
Cousins came to Pavilion to find me and fetch me back home. =D
Missed a day out with them today but well they are coming again on 1st January!
I'm gonna enjoy my new year by then.
Falling asleep while typing all these shits.
So yeah, goodnight!

Mistakes!

2010-12-17T15:35:00.002+08:00

I'm having a day off today! Wheee.
But after today, I have to work for 9 days straight.
Gosh. I'm gonna be super duper exhausted and tired.
Emotional broke down yesterday. The freaking whole day.
It's due to my personal problems and sicknesses.
I'm like so blur yesterday due to the flu that make me feel kinda dizzy.
End up I did lots of mistakes.
And one of them are terribly bad. I'll keep it as a secret to myself.
No one knows about that except for Su Ling.
I'm prepared to get scolded. ._.
Feel better today thou. No worries. :)
I can always cheer up very fast. But gone emo very fast too.
Let bygones be bygones.
Everything gonna be fine soon.
I'm such a big eater now because I eat 3 heavy meals everyday!
Keep feeling hungry. :(
Might be going to Timesquare with cousin tonight.
It's better than me rotting at home the freaking whole day.
Going to rest now!
Goodbyes.

Show me how to love you.

2010-12-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

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Weirdos.

2010-12-14T21:50:00.003+08:00

Barely have any time for leisure for the past few days.
I feel like dozing off right after I step into the room.
Gosh. It's like so lifeless. Or I shall say no life.
Have been working full shift for two days straight and I feel like dying right now.
Apparently, the buddies gathering in my body started yesterday night.
I'm having sore throat, flu and cough now. ._.
But I'm not going to take MC.
I rather suffer at working place than rotting at home.
Morning shift for tomorrow and full shift on Thursday!
Looking forward to Friday now because it's going to be off day.
This Friday gonna be my last off day and I'm going to work for 9 days straight till 26th.
Going to enjoy myself to the max after 26th.
Party and shopping like nobody business!
Btw, there are so many weirdos today.
Some asked me to take picture with them.
And there's one guy that I feel like giving him a slap. Oh gosh!
He approached me and ask me weird questions about our products.
So, I answered him and he asked what products suit his face.
I introduced the red rice range and he said it's expensive. ._.
Hellos! RM77 for 200ml cleanser/toner is dirt cheap!
He said that those he bought from supermarket is like RM20+ only.
Bitchhhhhh!
It's like so hard to drag myself to wake up every morning now!
Sighs. I'm tired of everything.
God bless me! Toodles.

Full shift!

2010-12-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

A short update of my current life!
I'm super duper exhausted and tired.
Just got back home from work not long ago.
Worked full shift today and barely rest during break.
Gosh. My feet are aching badly.
I need some massage. :(
Working full shift tomorrow too! Please kill me. ._.
Was very sad that I'm going to work at shop today because there's not target for me to hit.
If I wanted to get the same amount of commission as I hit 1k in promo place, I have to sell 3.5k stuffs in shop.
But well everything goes well today!
I did 4.9k sales. :))
But now , my sore throat worsen.
How am I going to bear for the next 14 days ?
I don't know. I like the job. I like everything.
But well sometimes the tiredness just make me dam moody.
Could hardly have enough sleep and rest.
Someone please cheer me up before I think of giving up again.
I'm fragile. I'm the princess. Whatsoever.
Gotta go to wash my clothes and sleep.
Good night! Have a nice weekdays. :)

p.s: so many things to do yet so little time.

Satisfied!

2010-12-10T21:11:00.003+08:00

Yellows! :)
I'm pretty satisfied today because I went to Pavilion for shopping spree.
Shopping alone ain't something bad thou.
Bought 2 pairs of flats from Charles and Keith! <3
Going to Pavilion for shopping purpose gave me 100% different feeling from going there to work.
Went to Sushi Zanmai @ Fahrenheit 88 for lunch.
Had my favourite chawanmushi! Me love.
Allowance day in 2 days time. Teehee.
Don't say that I'm rich because I go shopping always.
It's just that I'm good in managing my money.
Mummy gives me rm700 every month for foods and transportation.
No extra allowance for shopping. I barely spend them on expensive foods!
That's explain why I got money to shop every month.
I have to go shopping at least once a month or else I'm going to emo till I die!
I'm going to work full shift on Sunday. Oh god.
It means I have to work from 9.30am to 10pm. Please kill me.

To people that I've been complaining and ranting to:
I'm sorry for being so annoying.
Sometimes, I know I'm just a bit too over.
I might hurt your feelings. I doesn't mean for it.
Thousands of sorry to all of you.
I know that I should be contented of what I had now.
Forgive me please!
Not going to rant to you guys anymore.

Gonna keep all in my heart. Sealing them down on the bottom of my heart and release it by screaming out loud. :)Signing off with a big grin. :)

xoxo.

The suck feelings.

2010-12-09T21:43:00.003+08:00

I have been working for 10 days! And tomorrow is my off day. :)
My emotional overcome me today.
I'm like emo-ing throughout the 10hours of working.
Sad life. It's like I'm disappointed with myself.
I tried to do my best ; but the results ain't up to my expectation.
Perhaps , I'm the one who think too much.
Should just let everything flow on it own.
Sighs! I think I need something call shopping to release my stress.
Working life is kinda stress thou.
The manager is getting stricter. But I think it's something good.
Gonna get through them with a big smile on my face.
Hwaiting everyone!
Btw, I'm thinking to go shopping alone tomorrow.
It has been a while since I last went to shopping. I need to buy stuffs!
Saw lots of chio stuffs when I passed by those shops in Pavilion and Fahrenheit.
Thought of getting myself a few pairs of shoes from Charles and Keith.
Sales are everywhere and they are so tempting!
Gosh. Think that I'm gonna be dam broke after tomorrow. tsktsk.
But, it worth it if I'm happy right!
I'm such a big eater now cause I tend to get hungry easily.
3 meals a day and I'm still hungry at the end of the day tsktsk.
Which mean I'm going to grow fatter! :(
Gonna start my diet plan again soon!
I'm having a pretty healthy life now because I sleep early and wake up early.
By 12 am every night I'm gonna be on the bed. Trying to doze off.
And now I'm actually feeling really sleepy.
But I want to have a little time for other stuffs except from eat , sleep, and work.
Time to off and do face mask. :)
Goodnight!

Yours truly,
Signing off with lots of love. <3

I miss Daddy! :(

2010-12-07T22:22:00.003+08:00

I've been ranting and complaining a lot these few days.
Bear with it please people around me. :(
I need to rant or else I'm going to emo all the way.
And now I realized that I miss my Daddy.
He pampers me like a princess when I'm at Ipoh.
But now, leaving home means no longer a princess.
I have to walk to the train station, take trains to working place.
When I'm at Ipoh , Daddy gonna fetch me no matter how far the destinations are.
There's once I went to Kampar and he fetched me all the way to there and back.
How I wish Daddy is at KL with me right now.
Sighs. But that wish won't be granted forever!
Why? Cause Daddy hates everything in KL.
He hates the traffic jam, the very polluted environment and the expensive stuffs!
So, what I should do now is to dream about it.
I'm dead tired and exhausted!
Gotta slack on my bed and doze off soon.
Goodnight peeps! :)
Signing off with lots of love. <3

p.s: I want the key for your heart.

:))

2010-12-05T22:33:00.002+08:00

Aloha all!
Just get back from work not long ago and finished doing my stuffs.
So, it's time for a little entertainment before I doze off!
I barely got time to online and update this little diary of mine now. :(
You know how much I love blogging right.
But well, I will try my best to update on the days I'm working morning shift.
I will reach home around 9pm if I work morning shift.
So, I could got a little spare time to online. :)
It's Sunday today! Happy Sunday and Happy Working to me.
Last time, I always complain that I'm gonna to rot at home on Sunday because cousis have to work.
But now, I'm the one who have to work. ._.
Working life is bored! And tired.
Super duper tired. Couldn't get enough rest all the time.
Standing for at least 6 hours a day killed me.
My left foot's toe hurts. It's like blue black now. :(
Not going to rant that much because I got my friends to work with me!
At least, there are someone to talk to right.
Btw, I hit target for today and yesterday! <3
I'm going to sleep soon thou! Nights all.

p.s: Pochi is with me! =D

It's started all over again.

2010-12-04T22:18:00.003+08:00

So, I had a day off yesterday.
But then I don't think a day off is enough.
I'm still feeling very tired and exhausted.
My feet are aching badly. ._.
The worst is that I don't even have time for myself.
Today I woke up around 9am and get prepared.
Took train to KL Sentral to get my touch and go card fixed.
Walk from monorail to KL Sentral is definitely hell.
It's dam freaking far. :(
The advantage of afternoon shift is that I can sleep longer.
And the DISADVANTAGES are I'm gonna reach home around 11pm.
Besides that, after drying my hair I will straight doze off.
Got no time for other stuffs thou.
Sighs.
I'm gonna bear with this life till 26th and I'm free! :)
Shopping spree time after that! Teehee!
Wheeeeee.