I've lots to rant about since my uni life started.
There's no one for me to rant to thou.
Not like it's like no one. They are not free. My friends are all busy.
So, I shall rants at here instead.
Ranting is the way for me to release stress.
I'm never good in handling stress. Which mean I always ended up with depression.
That's so sucky. Really sucky. :(
I've been procrastinating again. I hated myself.
I promised myself to change. I need good grades.
Don't wanna disappoint my parents. I'm their only hope.
They never stress on me. Never say I must get good grades.
That's all what I wanted because. They love me. I want to make them happy.
Sighs. I've been putting much stress on myself , I reckon.
I know I shouldn't. But I can't help with them.
Could hardly have any good night sleep nowadays.
Woke up at least few times in the midnight. ._______.
What should I do. What should I do?
Everything doesn't seem right. :((

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Relationship.
Freak. I'm scared of this word. Relationship.
Lots of my friends always ask why I'm single when I tell them so.
I don't know. ._. I don't feel like being in a relationship.
Well. Most probably it's because I haven't really moved on from him.
Yeah. Him. The him.
It has been months. But still. I don't know why it's so hard to move on from him.
It's like orh fml.
Love is a heaven and hell at the same time.
So yeah. Studies come first. tyvm

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Friendship.
Well. I don't really have lots of friends at uni now.
I'm still new to here.
I wanted to be in a group. Go class and lunch together with them.
But it's hard for me. Some of them got their own friends from pre-u.
Most of them are good to me thou.
Perhaps, I shall try harder in knowing friends.
It's week 5 already.
Anyone in Monash wanna be my friends. ? :(
I look like freaking loner at uni. Dead serious. .____.

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Whatever it is. I shall go through them bravely.
But the truth is that. I look strong. Brave. Tough.
But deep inside , I'm fragile.
I wouldn't let much people to know about my sadness and struggles thou.
Just few of them now.
And most importantly. I don't cry in front of others.
Well. Except for funerals.
Don't judge me will you. I'm not smart nor rich.
Getting a chance to study in Monash doesn't mean I'm rich.
Rich is a word way far to describe me and my family.
Tsktsk. Average family I'm having.
I have a very hardworking parents.
They work hard just for me. My future. Thanks God I got them.
Infinity loves for them. <3!
Time to do revision!
Toodles. :)


Signing off.
xoxo.