Two months ago , I came back home to see a skinny Coco.
She can't walk properly. She injured her left foot.
Dad and bro just wouldn't know how heartache am I when I see her condition.
Insisted them to bring her to vet but the dad just keep saying that she'll recover by her own.
3 weeks passed, she's still the same.
Bro and I fetched her to the vet and the vet said , we dragged it too long.
Kinda impossible for her to recover. Should be glad that she still make the effort to walk.
For the next few weeks, she still go for a walk when I ask her to come out.
But start from last month , she barely walk.
What she did at home is just lying down and only walk when it's bathing and eating time.
She gets weaker and weaker by days.
It makes my heart ache even more.
What hurts more is when I ask dad to bring her for vet.
The conversation goes on like this :

Dad : Which vet you all bring Coco to ?
Me : Haven't bring yet. The previous one said can't recover. I don't believe those govn vet.
Dad : So which one you all plan to bring her to ?
Me : Dr. Gilbert at Ipoh Garden East. I called him up and told him about Coco's conditions. He said need to do X-ray.
Dad : Wah. Why don't bring to government vet ? Much cheaper. Those private one dam expensive.
Me : *remain silent*

The only reason I remain silent is that I feel so pissed off.
She's the dog that gave birth of puppies that you can sell thousands last time.
Now , she can't give birth anymore.
Does that means that she got no value anymore ?
So now you think that she's just an useless dog.
You earned thousands from the puppies she gave birth from.
Now paying hundreds for the vet you need to say till like that ?
One word . Heartless.

*******
Just now, I was chatting with friend outside of my house.
Sitting on the bench besides the drain.
Coco walked out for pee and poo.
Aftermaths , she just lie down on the tar road.
No matter how I call her , she just wouldn't get back into the house.
Tried to force her get up and managed to make her walk till the side of the road.
But after that, she just lie down there.
Tried all the ways I could think of , but still she wouldn't get back into the house.
Massaged her injured foot for her but still she just lie there.
I saw her eyes started to close.
Took her head up and keep calling her name and ask her to go back home.
She lie her head back down and I saw tears on her eyes.
Somehow, I know that she's giving up her life.
She can't walk properly anymore. Not to say running.
I ended up cuddle her back into the house.

*******
I know it sounds so stupid to feel so devastated and cry over a dog.
Just so you know, I'm closer with my dogs than my parents.
Everyday, I was at home alone with my dogs while others went to work.
Just me and them.
Coco is my only companion since Fifi and Chocolate died.
Staying with her for six years.
The love bond is there.
She'll be the last dog that I will love that much, I reckon.
I gave up on getting new dogs and get close to them.
They can't live long. I doesn't want to have the same lose feelings over again.
It's so hurtful. To lose something that you love so much.
Dog is the best secret keeper ever.
They understand.
If you undergoes family problems like me , you'll know why I'm so close to my dogs.
The end.

p.s : dear god, please don't take back Coco that fast. I love her more than you do.

boooooohooo!