Sadness filled everyone's heart.

It spells so as F.A.M.I.L.Y but it doesn't let me feel much of the family warmth and love.

I doesn't know why.

With these fuss happening in the family nothing seems go right.

It's none of my business. Different surname.

Sigh. But the image of grandma eyes with tears make me heartache.

Why why.

Everyone thinks they are right. Egoism .

Money is the main cause.

Does money really can buy family love ?

I don't know. But that's a big no no for me to let go love because of money.

Double sigh.

Shouldn't think and care so much thou.

Just wish everything is alright for now.

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Time flies aren't it. It's Wednesday which mean I've spent half of my break already.

It seems like yesterday was the first day.

Leaving home and back to k-hell tomorrow.

Always feeling very reluctant to leave but I have to.

Dance practice, work , and studies.

I need, no I MUST buck up with my studies.

Forgotten most of the stuff that lecturers taught few weeks back.

I felt stupid. It's my bad thou. Never really keep track with revision.

Btw, deep inside my heart I wanted to getaway from M'sia for a little while.

I guess I need a little vacation.

All by my own. Alone, perhaps.

Like a real relaxation. Without worries. Without stress. :)

Saving up for my leisure.

That's my dream and aim for now.

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Relationship. I've no one in my heart and mind right now.

Yes, no one.

I love myself more than anyone now. Selfish much eh.

Involving myself into r/s is a big no no for now.

Sometimes, I do feel lonely.

I do feel tired of being alone. Being independent. Being brave and tough.

There's time where I wanted a shoulder to lean on , a body to hug.

But still, these reasons won't be why I find a bf.

I need someone who loves me more than I love him.

Not someone for me to hold when I feel my life is hard, tough and bad.

I want someone to support me. That's it.

So simple aren't it. :)

Enjoying my single life, so hell yeah.

I can still mingle all around. Flirting here and there. Hehs.

Signing off with loves,

xoxo. :)